Chakra Control

(i dunno. written in fifteen minutes. just getting things out of my head that are taking up room. I have no idea what’s going on here.)

Returning to Konoha had been a mistake. He couldn’t compute what had made him think that he could waltz back into the village riddled with families of shinobi he had either hurt or murdered with impunity. 

What a fucking disaster. 

Covered in splatters of something- he had a feeling it was overly ripe vegetables from the market- he stormed through the town, letting the rolling rage of his energy carve a path through the crowds. People side stepped and stumbled to get out of the way of the incoming Uchiha, their eyes wide their mouths wider. 

Idly and with a lot more aggression than necessary he ripped a piece of something- tomato skin probably- from the side of his face where it had smashed to a stop. Courtesy of angry housewives with no husbands and children with no fathers. 

God-fucking-damn it. 

Above, the clouds were a blazing white against the azure blue of a summer day. The sun glimmered and sparkled with glory, unaware of spotlighting Sasuke’s humiliation as he ripped through town back towards the abandoned Uchiha district at the outskirts. 

Something wet and slimy was sliding down the back of his neck and sucking in a long breath he reached back and studied his hand for a second. Just long enough to ascertain that they had in fact thrown eggs at him as well. 

Cutting to the right, he headed towards the river, shooting a glare at a gaping pedestrian before shoving past through an alley and then pumping chakra into his legs jumped onto the roof top, smooth as a cat on a hunt. 

Although he felt more like a dog with it’s tail between his legs. 

What a fucking disaster he was. 


Standing on the surface of the water had a way of soothing nerves she couldn’t grapple with on land. The pulse and lick of the liquid beneath her feet was familiar and calming. Sometimes she wondered if perhaps it reminded her of being in the womb, tightly wrapped and swimming in an ever present hug. 

Eyes closed Hinata let the sunshine slide over her skin, the warmth almost a burn on her paleness. She had to be careful practicing her control in the water because without the cover of the trees she could end up blistered and in pain. More than once she had gone home mourning the loss of her smooth white shoulders, given way to freckles and aching red skin. 

It was a price she was willing to pay though, to calm the twisting knots of her stomach and the nerves that made her hands shake while speaking. 

Pulling her dark hair up into a ponytail she sighed, and keeping her eyes closed shifted her weight back and forth on her feet, feeling the slip and slide of the river lick the top of her foot and then sink back down below as she caused waves to dance along her ankles. 

Then with a flourish of her hand she pulled a ribbon from the river in an arc that followed her slender fingers. It sparkled in the light, casting rainbows where the sun shone through before spilling smoothly back into the water’s current on the other side of her body. 

Getting a feel for the stream’s mood Hinata smiled, amused by it’s playfulness and lifted another hand, arching it along her body. The water danced in a twirl above her head, sinking back into it’s mother river below with a splash.

Opening her eyes Hinata breathed in deep. Time to work. 

Setting her jaw seriously she spread her legs to anchor herself to the heartbeat of the water and extended her arms wide, letting her chakra roll out in a sphere of influence along the molecules of the current. 

One by one the dewy beads began to rise to her call, pearls of liquid that tightened and knit into each other in a solid orb of protection, tightening and tightening together to create a womb of safety. Brow furrowed Hinata stitched the water tighter determined that no kunai or jutsu should break through her shield. 

As her chakra intensified the river rushed around the glittering ball that shimmered like impure glass, sparkling in the daylight hiding the slim focused form within. 


He had never seen something like it before and so for a moment he forgot he was covered in the rotten tomatoes of disgruntled villagers and stared through the last of the trees before the river bed. 

The ball was crystal white and reflected the light of the sun in all directions, making it difficult to look at it directly. The river raged around it and tendrils of water snapped and hissed like snakes along it’s surface, hiding further what he thought might be a silhouette within it’s confines. 

Curiosity was an innate Uchiha trait and even in his state of dishevelment he found himself inching forward, hand sliding to his katana at his back, fingering the hilt absently. 

Black eyes focused he eyed the edge of the river bed where the water shuddered against the smooth rocks and glistened on the sparkling sand. Brow furrowed he slid out of his sandals and stepped into the water, watching with interest as the sphere at the center of the river shuddered and glistened in response. 

“What the…”

Idly he lifted a kunai in his hand, cocking his head slightly. 

Well fuck, curiosity killed the cat, right? 

And he tossed the blade true into the center of the glass orb. 

He may as well have picked a fight with a river god. 

Grunting he ducked as a solid mass of water shot from the liquid at his feet, aiming for his head, and another coming from his side. Startled now he moved to flip and sucked in a breath, looking down at the water wrapping tighter and tighter around his feet, where he had willingly placed himself at the river’s edge. 

Oh shit. 

Drawing the katana he narrowed his eyes slicing through the onslaught of prodding jabbing water, watching it disperse and tumble to the ground with every slash, soaking him to the bone rather quickly. 

Eyes flickering to the orb he slammed the katana between his feet and glad to feel the release of the chakra binding him to the river bed he snapped onto the water surface and shot forward towards the glittering sphere. 

Manipulating water was not his best skill, even walking on it caused him to flounder and concentrate but whatever the hell that thing was, it wasn’t friendly and he didn’t like leaving fights half finished. 

Raising his katana he dragged in a breath and launching himself from the rolling river surface lifting the blade in both hands, aiming to come down at the top of sphere with all the force he could muster. 


Hinata frowned within the warmth and security of her water shell, flinching as her chakra writhed violently outside of her defense. 

Calm down, Hinata. 

Her anxiety was getting the best of her. Fighting opponents that were not even visible with her chakra. The river was playful and responsive to her energy. Hopefully there was no one out there or she would be soaking them to the bone with her uncontrolled flailing. 

Grappling with the wriggling water she sighed, and shook her head, finally opening her eyes and releasing the sphere with a wave of her hand. No, why wouldn’t her chakra and the river relax? What was wrong with her?

The orb disintegrated like ice before a fireplace, falling apart at the top and with a gasp she looked up, a shot of electricity running through her as her shinobi senses screamed of threat. 

Byuakugan snapping to her face and with her feet sliding out to absorb the blow she cried out, not in fear but a battle cry, raising both hands. 

“Hn!”

Sasuke’s katana slammed hard into a blue sheen that looked like water but was solid as steel, the impact sent ripples of pain up his forearms and with a grunt of effort he flipped backwards, using the force of the impact and the incoming blow from the wielder below the shield to vault him back to his feet a few steps away on the river bed, panting. 

The shield melted away into the river again in sparkling tendrils of water, revealing the stunned and wide eyed shape of one Hinata Hyuuga, staring at him in shock and confusion, hands raised and at the ready. 

“Uchiha-san!” her voice was high pitched and confused as her face. “W-what are you-?”

“Hyuuga.” He stared, as confused and panicked as she was but with a little more control on his face. “What the hell are you doing?” 

Hinata didn’t lower her battle stance, Byakugan staring through his skin and into the folds of his chakra. “I… I was training.” 

Frowning Sasuke slid his katana back along his back. “Hn.” 

At the sight of his weapon disappearing Hinata slowly straightened and breathing deep allowed her Byakugan to fade. “…I…I am so sorry, was my- was I-?” realizing suddenly why her chakra had been so aggressive and unwilling to comply with her demand for calm she closed her eyes, blushing hard. “Was I attacking you?”

Sasuke didn’t move, interested in the fact that she was a little embarrassed. 
“You’re not the first today.” He grunted, starting back towards the river bed. “Don’t worry about it.”

Something about his last sentence made her start and taking a handful of steps after him she paused, hands to her lips, suddenly noticing the stains along his shirt and pants, the residue of vegetable skins at his neck and arms. 

“Oh….oh no.” she stepped a few waves closer along the river, and he stopped at her voice, glancing over his shoulder at her with a frown. 

“What?”

Lips pressed tightly together Hinata searched his face, lifting a hand up with a long slender finger not pointing at him so much as gesturing. A tendril of water rose by his feet and he shifted against it, unconsciously reaching for his katana again. 

“N-no… I…” Hinata frowned and the water moved slowly along in a ribbon of pulsing liquid, smoothing along his cheek, washing away the remnants of something thrown at him in hate. 

Holding perfectly still Sasuke blinked, focusing on breathing and the feel of her chakra infused river sliding over his skin, wiping away at his shame. 

“Who did this?” He had never heard Hinata Hyuuga’s voice so hard, and he wondered that like the water she could be fluid, warm, and gentle, or solid as the shield she wielded against his sword. 

“A lot of people.” He managed after a moment. 

The water slid back into the river and Hinata walked slowly towards him. Her frown unshakable now on her face. “I’m so sorry.”

Keeping his face still he stared at her some more, curious not just about her expression but the way his heart was reacting, thumping around angrily in his chest. 

“Your apology is useless, you did nothing.”

“Well.” She admitted softly. “I… I wouldn’t have let them, if I had been there.”

He stared some more, unable to reply. 

“I’m good at…shielding things.” She added and smiled finally, enveloping him in that moment in the warmth of the summer day. 

When he didn’t reply she cocked her head, just a little. She couldn’t imagine herself in his shoes, covered in the hatred people had for him, wearing it on his clothing and skin as evidence. 

“I…if you stand still, I can wash it off.” She added, and her hands spread wide, the river replying to her call and lifting in ribbons that danced and twisted around her like dragonflies and butterflies and bees all swirling at the silent song of her chakra. 

This was usually the moment when Sasuke would scoff, or glare and step away, dismissing the offer with distaste, maybe even a scathing remark. 

But her eyes were wide and open, and her smile was warm where he had felt freezing. 

He was tired of being cold. 

“…okay…” Then hurriedly. “I hardly believe you have that kind of chakra control. You’ll have to prove it.” 

Her smile didn’t waver, perhaps because the way he said it was obviously to excuse himself allowing her touch. 

“I guess, we’ll see.” 

Katana

Major Hinata OOC. I cry mercy. 

Music listened to while writing: Linkin Park: Recharged 


Bringing her weight down moving with the spasm of energy through her chest and spine she tossed herself head over heels backwards, slamming into the dirt so the ground shattered in craters around her knees and feet on impact. Chakra and excitement rolling out of her in waves.

This was the kind of battle when the light never came.

With a burst her body shot forward, the impact of her fist to the enemy throat knocked his Adam’s apple into the back of his neck. A nauseating crunch echoed. His eyes widened and the darkness of death ate away the life in that face. A flickering candle in a windstorm of her making, and then he was gone.

Breathing deep she ducked as a sword came flying from behind her, Byakugan eyes pulsed with the blood and chakra pumping through her veins. Huffing hard she kicked backwards, extra pounds of energy sending the man flying back into an ally in a matching black mask.

Behind her own Anbu cover she smirked, watching as the two impaled each other in their struggle to gain their footing from the force of her attack.

Snapping her turned head out of the way of incoming kunai from behind she smiled bigger. Hands lit with the blue flames of her gentle fist she twisted, ripping into the chest cavity of the idiot behind her who had dared to throw the knives and get close.

Fingers wrapping around the pulsing thing that was his blood pump she grunted, ripping it out with a vicious snap of tendons, breaking ribs and sucking sounds.

This seemed to cause a pause in the frantic energy of the incoming shinobi. Their weapons raised as she watched the now heartless man before her stare with uncomprehending eyes as his organ gave two more feeble pumps before his knees gave out and he landed on the moss below.

With her hands covered in the sticky film of someone else’s life she turned, her mask surveying the stillness on everyone’s limbs, counting quickly.

There were thirty. Perhaps this would take five minutes.

Either they would want to avenge, and pose an actual challenge or they were wetting themselves and it would be a slaughter.

She squeezed the heart until the pump crumbled thickly, like ground meat squished between her fingers and she let the scraps of red drop from between her digits, making wet slopping sounds as they landed next to it’s original host.

“So?” She settled into battle stance again, and her voice was light as the blood dripped down her forearm.

“Who is next?”

The spell broke at the crack of a branch behind them followed by the moan of a fallen comrade and she smiled within the confines of her mask, watching the tension on their bodies switch from terrified to furious.

Yes.

Come at me.

They were a multi layered mountain and she relished it as they fell upon her. Moving with the grace of her clan, the grace of all the clans she twisted through their blows, feeling the touches of the air being broken around her although nothing landed on her skin.

There was a reason why she was who she was. Called what she was called, whispered about, the Pearl Eyed Nightmare.

Although, few had ever seen such a thing. Few that still could talk anyway. It might have been something she encouraged. Fear was a better weapon than any sword. That’s probably why she never bothered to be afraid. Why hand her enemy an atomic bomb? It seemed stupid.

With a breath that was speeding up more from excitement than strain she ducked, kicking the legs out from under one of the men and throwing him over her shoulder at the incoming one from behind. She swept the legs of the next one as she dodged the blow of his kunai to her ribcage, using his wrist in two seconds to shove the knife he still held into his comrade on her right.

With a jam of her elbow down into his forearm she broke the limb making him scream and let go of the knife which she grabbed as it jumped into the air, throwing it into the head of the incoming attack from the left. Then with a deep breath she ducked as a katana swept the air above her, making her play limbo with the deadly blade.

In the speckled light the men clad in black from head to toe were shadows unable to reach for her, all of them a crowd over a small lithe shape that moved as the twisting light coming down from the trees, uncatchable, fluid.

Kicking the katana from the badly trained arm that held it she snatched it from midair and threw it as spear into it’s wielder and the man behind him skewering them both. With mild amusement she twisted and blocked the snap of a left hook coming at her from someone she had not noticed.

Her surprise was short lived, another mask glared at her, that of a red tailed hawk, it’s angry nightmare inducing beak evil as it stared.

The men were falling all around her as they finally realized their wounds. Knees weakening with the growing terror of understanding. The fight had lasted a total of three minutes and forty two seconds. It appeared that they had indeed wet themselves.

Muscles and hearts and lives had been lost in the fray, moans could be heard though not everyone was dead yet. She had to finish this or there would be talk and you couldn’t have that in her profession.

But there was the hawk, with his hand now wrapped around her raised wrist, his grip an iron shackle.

“Enough.” The voice that came from behind the hawk mask was smooth and tempered like steel and she had for a moment the inexplicable desire to launch herself at him to see if she could draw blood.

It would not be the first time that this thought fluttered it’s wings within her head, it would also not be the first time she had had to tell herself no.

There were other times of course that she had not refused her desire. She still sported wounds from it that would scab and leave pleasant slashes of memory in the scars along her torso.

God, how she wanted to taste his blood off her finger tips.

“They aren’t dead yet.” She replied, and her peregrine falcon mask almost made her sound breathless, although he knew better.

If she was breathless it was because she had been excited. The blood lust had been woken with the force of a tsunami off a coast. It would sweep them all away if he didn’t stop it from gaining strength and force.

He could see within her the spring wound tight, threatening to set her loose and for a moment he had the fleeting furious thought that he was glad he had not been sent out with her on the mission alone.

Two handlers had seemed like an unusual request at first from the Hokage, but upon seeing her movements on the first mission, watching her panting with the desire for chaos he had suddenly understood.

Up above, watching from one of the trees his older brother let out a soft whistle.

“We need them to talk. I think the stunt with the heart did the trick in getting them to understand the seriousness of their situation.”

Breath coming in slowly, carefully the peregrine falcon mask straightened, although the chakra was still pulsing just beneath her skin making everything around her feel both hot and cold, including the quickly numbing hand the Hawk was using to hold her.

With a final warning squeeze he let go, surprised yet again that nerves and instinct refused to let him walk away from her without keeping his eyes firmly on her shape.

He didn’t need to see her mouth to know she was grinning at him, the predatory smile matching her mask with a precision that tightened the muscles of his stomach until he felt a little ill.

“Now, now.” His brother sighed deeply. “Let’s not do this thing again. You know that in the end, we hold the final key, Peregrine.”

Her code name made her turn her head slowly towards the man on the tree, her curtain of black hair moving softly with the wind.

It didn’t escape either of them that she was beautiful, that like a masterfully made blade she breathed for the touch of blood with the elegance and awe inspiring smoothness of a work of art.

The thing was, unlike a blade she wanted everyone’s blood and even though the brothers had been tasked with being the wielders of this weapon, it often felt more like she wielded them.

If they had not been as close as they were, able to use each other’s strengths and cover each other’s weaknesses there had been a couple close calls where she would have taken them- if not to death’s door, then to the hospital for an extended stay.

“Fine.” She said it like she had never intended to do anything other than listen. Turning her back to them- a thing that always made him grind his teeth with either irritation or envy- she surveyed her work.

The men, a cohort of nearly forty, were sprawled in various states of death or dying along the ground and her eyes scanned them until she found one, he supposed, with the strongest flickering light.

Walking with the silky and leisurely strut of a panther to a kill she waded through the corpses, stepping uncaringly on the chest of a wide eyed and empty shell of a man to reach the one leaning against a tree trunk, his eyes widening with panic as she neared.

His eyes stayed fixed on her hand, now crusting with drying blood from her flourishing touch. Taking hearts out of men’s bodies was her signature. If anyone ever doubted who she was before a fight, after witnessing that they always knew.

Pearl Eyed Nightmare.

“Wait.” Hawk snapped, and above him Falcon hissed a curse as he jumped down, though neither of them did anything as she reached down and took the man’s throat in her blood crusted hand.

She was too small to pick him up the way she did, but the chakra was pumping in her with the same hungry lust she had from the fight, and with it’s help she lifted the man high above her head, too short to really make his feet dangle.

It didn’t matter, the terror on his face was enough. Her grip, digging into his throat threatening to crack the trachea within it did the trick of making the action awful to watch.

“We will ask questions, and you will answer.” She began conversationally.

“Peregrine.” Falcon snapped tensely, although he and Hawk stayed where they were.

They knew better than to approach. Better to lose a possible information source than a comrade.

Or brother.

“You will answer and then those two over there will double check by going into your mind, making you nightmare until they find the truth.” Her smile was heard in her voice, her pleasure a smell in the air and a taste on the tongue.

A taste like copper.

Like blood.

“Peregrine.” Hawk hissed with impatience.

The tone registered, the brothers watched as her head seemed to cock, like she had just caught wind of their voices.

Falcon shifted sharply.

Shit.

“Damn it.” Hawk whispered, realizing his mistake.

They had just enough time to drag in a breath before she flickered out of sight, their Sharingan activating hard like a blow to each eye in their hurry to see her and by that saving grace they were able to block the incoming explosion of chakra and raw murder aimed at both.

With a shout Hawk ducked the flashing light of energy in her palms, aiming to take his heart out of his chest while Falcon slammed an elbow around towards the nape of her neck, although she was no longer there, twisting around him instead.

“Itachi!” In his panic Sasuke let the name slip and his brother gasped before throwing himself backwards. It was not what she had expected. She knew their fighting styles, the grace of their movements, the speed in their limbs, the way they dodged instead of closing the gap. His shoulder blades slammed into her, and her chakra lined hands cut at his skin although it didn’t stab.

She let out a hiss of air and when they hit the ground she knew she was done for. With a grin beneath her mask she felt first the one brother and then the other join as they pinned her to the ground.

She was fast, she was strong, she was however still a woman and on the ground two men had the upper hand and she knew it. Letting for the first time her body melt into the moss below her she sighed, staring through her mask up at the heavens where the light shifted against the green canopy.

They had been training, clearly. They had been discussing her fighting style so as to be sure how to disable her.

She needed to take that into consideration for next time or they would get boring.

“Fuck.” Sasuke breathed from behind his hawk mask.

It was too late, Itachi’s name had left his mouth. All of the men laying on the forest floor were going to have to die. Angrily he ripped his mask off, and Itachi beside him sighed, doing the same.

“Damnit, Sasuke.”

“Me?” His brother hissed, jerking his chin towards the sprawled and surprisingly quiet monster they had pinned to the ground. “What about her?”

“Yes, what about me?” Hinata’s smile was broad and all encompassing in it’s beauty and terror as Itachi removed her mask and tossed it aside.

On her forehead the only marring feature was the caged bird seal. He reached out one long finger, pressing it to the center of the mark, watching as the smile on her face evaporated and was replaced by the steely eyed dead core that he actually feared.

This bantering, fanged creature that smiled was just a facade. She was being agreeable, in her own agonizing way.

When her face smoothed to a placid stillness, and her brows calmed to straight dark lines along her forehead he knew they were on serious ground.

Dangerous ground.

“It costs a lot when we use this.” He whispered, glad that Sasuke’s sharingan was focused on her with an intensity that would have predicted the movement of the oxygen molecules in the air around her let alone her movements.

“It costs you bits of who you are, does it not? It fries your brain.” He breathed out softly, irritated that the wound on his back was causing him to feel dizzy.

“You don’t want to lose yourself. We know that. You know that. Don’t make me use this.”

In her stillness and with her face so calm she looked impossible. Her mouth was pink and small and plump, her cheeks smooth, there were no scars, there was no red lipstick, there were no fangs.

She was a girl. Just a girl with wide pale eyes, long lashes, a small nose.

Very softly, hardly audible she replied. “In another world, in a different place, it is you who suffer the stigma of being an abomination, an avenger for your clan. A madman. A monster.” She stared into his eyes, her pearly gaze unaffected by the usually intimidating sharingan.

Shifting her gaze from Itachi’s to Sasuke she stared into him as well, as if her unblinking bland focus could transmit the information. “I endure this because I know, somewhere else both of you suffer what I suffer. I know it.” Then with more conviction she murmured. “I’ve seen it.”

The shivers that slid down their spines were uncontrollable and Itachi felt himself scrunch his eyes with dislike at her, his hands were hot where they pinned her wrists to the ground.

It was not the first time she had stated she could see the alternate timelines. She had hinted before that she had seen the Uchihas. It was an effect of her Byakugan’s higher awakening, something written in ancient scrolls that they had considered myth but were now being realized as an actual possibility. Now that she, the last of the Hyuuga was exercising such abilities.

Although how much was true was hard to tell.

“Whatever.” Sasuke grunted. “Don’t move while we interrogate the leftovers, or we’ll have to leave you seizing on the ground.”

A small upturn of her lips graced her mouth then and he froze.

“They’re dead.”

Itachi closed his eyes for half a second.

Sasuke didn’t take his eyes off her, knowing better than to let her distract him into looking over his shoulder to check. If she said it, it was true and that meant they had lost the information they needed.

“I guess we’re going to have to hunt for another.” she continued conversationally as if two men weren’t pinning her to the ground with growing frustration.

“Fuck.” Itachi whispered, shoving himself to his feet.

And that’s what she had wanted.

She had wanted them all to die because then she had to go out again, to destroy more. To hunt, as she put it.

This was all a game to her.

After killing her murdering cousin, destroying the elders and founders of Konoha in charge of the massacre of her clan she had had no purpose. She had gone mad.

She disagreed with those statement vehemently and said simply. “I am a sharpened blade. I cut, or I go dull. Would you let yourself dull?”

And they wouldn’t. They were shinobi. Becoming dull was not an option. Death was. But not dullness.

“One day, you’ll regret all this.” Sasuke whispered to her softly as he stood, watching her continue to lay on the ground, staring past him at the shifting light in the tree canopy, the greens and golds, the warmth seeping into her bones.

She smiled then, a real smile that made her look young and soft and touchable.

“You’re wrong, you know.” And the tenderness in her voice made him pause, made Itachi turn to look at her, ripping his gaze from the desecrated bodies splayed over the ground to the bizarrely sweet image of her laying in the sun on the moss, relaxed.

“Do you know what regret means?” with her eyes closed her voice was getting more and more gentle, her breath coming slow and steady. “It means to be disappointed or saddened by something, a missed opportunity for instance.”

Itachi glanced at Sasuke at the same time his brother glanced at him.

“I didn’t have a chance to decide if I would regret or not. When my mother was cut from me by my cousin, it happened. I regretted. Every day. Always.” She opened her pearl eyes then and with the sun shining right into them, they were jewels, and the brothers wondered if perhaps she was not human.

Perhaps she was death.

Perhaps she was the angel sent to take men home.

“So, I won’t regret it one day. I have already done all my regretting. Now, there’s only this.” She lifted her hand up, and the crusted dry blood all over her pale limb was in stark contrast to her skin.

“I hope in the other universe you speak of so often, you are not this.” Itachi finally whispered, frowning at her with something along the lines of pity. But only just barely.

She laughed then and closed her eyes again as she let her limb drop to the ground.

“I think I will do my mission correctly next time. I wouldn’t want the Hokage considering another pair of handlers.” she admitted then, her amusement lighting her voice brightly. “You two are too deliciously ironic not to have around.”

Ironic.

Sasuke tried not to think too hard about it, as did his brother while they moved into the mess of corpses, breathing in deep for Katon to burn them to ashes.

Sometimes the katana they had been tasked with wielding, seemed to be wield them.

Always Dark

She was the fire, the blazing heat that seared through the black and made the shadows of the shinobi shudder and dance in the flames of her gaze. She could spot them without any struggle without batting an eyelash. 

And he was the fan to the flame, building it and teaching it how to climb higher, burn brighter, destroy more. 

“Two on the right.” 

Her voice was soft, it whispered and long ago he had given up trying to convince himself that the smell of her breath, all soft flowers and pure brooks in summer didn’t make him drunk. 

He spun, and with his eyes he would have seen them, but a second too late to dodge the blow to his right. With her warning he was able to dig inside the chest cavity of one, disrupting in a very catastrophic way the energy flowing within the folds of his torso while her hands spit and sparkled with chakra, slamming her pulsing energy into the invisible points on the other attackers body only she could see. 

In the black of night with no moon due to the rolling black of the cloud cover they were demons. Nothing could hide from them, and they could hide from everything. 

“Where’s the mark?” 
She had already found it, but he loved to speak, watching her chakra shift in the darkness as she tuned herself to him. 
“Two miles south.” 
“These scouts will not be noticed until after we’re gone.” He stepped over the body bleeding into the forest ground and she followed. 

“Uchiha-san.” Her hand was suddenly on his back, along the blasting inferno he was ignoring on his shoulder blade where one of the enemy kunai had managed to carve into his body. 

“It’s not bad.” He dismissed it but had stopped moving at her touch and in the way she usually did things she ignored him, her chakra starting to seep into him between the chain links of his atoms. 

“You will be distracted by it. It’s nearly to the bone.” She murmured, and he hardly heard her. Her chakra was an ice bath after sunburn, it was a warm fire after a snowfall, a warm meal after starving. 

He tried to steady his heart beat, irritated with himself even as he relished her fingers on his skin. 

If only they didn’t always have to work in the dark. Maybe then he would have seen the heat that overwhelmed her face as she touched him. Maybe he would have noticed the shift of her all seeing eyes unwilling to meet his gaze or the tremble in her usually rock steady hands.

But it was always dark when the Fan and Flame, the two man elite team of Konoha was ever needed. 

It was always dark. 

Starvation in Fanfiction

I have read a lot of fanfiction.
There are some really promising authors out there that are writing full length novels and trilogies on some of their favorite works and I commend you all. That kind of work is just insane to comprehend- insane to do. The creativity is awesome. 

One pet peeve though: RESEARCH-specifically about one thing this time: Starvation

I read a fanfic recently that reminded me of this and how often I see it. Starvation- the concept of someone not having enough food for a long enough period of time that they are weak and or dying from it. 

The scene was a really intense emotional one, in fact I would say it was the climax. However I kept being distracted by the fact that the character was essentially dying after being without food for 7 days. (nope)

Actually- they had eaten occasionally,(nope nope) not much but some in the 7 days. And in that period of time they were drawn and thin, their cheeks were sunken in their skin was yellow. (nope nope nope)

No. No. Nopers. 

We can survive without WATER for 7 days. Without FOOD though- that’s another ball game. 

I’ve done fasts for 14, 18, and 23 days respectively on nothing but water. NOTHING BUT WATER. 

It’s not pleasant the first three days, but after that you’re mostly just a little tired and the pangs of hunger actually subside.

You don’t have a lot of energy, for sure. You lose a good chunk of muscle mass.(and it can affect your heart, mineral levels lower rapidly. The fasts I did were supervised. Quitting eating is never a good idea without some back up. Seriously.) You get headaches if you don’t rest enough or drink enough water. 

I have met people who start looking starved after doing 40 day fasts. They were originally rather slim so I think that’s why they looked so skeletal. But they were still moving around, talking, going to things. (these fasts are done for religious reasons so it’s possible that they are being sustained by something greater than themselves at this point, but let’s not go there that’s not the point of this post.) 

40 days though, guys. 

So, if you’re going to starve a character, if you want them to look on the brink of death consider a some things: 

a)have they had access to water and would they have drank it? 
(if they are depressed and therefore shutting down, maybe not. Maybe 7 days is a real time frame for their decline because it’s an emotional starvation as well as a water and food one. 7 days is long enough for a person to start looking pretty close to kicking the bucket without any water)

b) has someone been forcing them to eat a little here and there? 
(example: someone depressed has a caretaker forcing them to eat occasionally, and drink often enough. 7 days is NOT long enough for them to be gaunt, yellow or dying. These people can likely stand on their own, walk on their own, and argue with some energy if angered.)

c)is this person trying to survive, actively searching for a way to remedy their starvation and thirst? 
(this person could potentially over tax their body if they have not had water or have had water and no food for an extended period of time while they search for food. but they can last pretty well with water only and rest for a period of over 2 weeks, easy. If they are for instance fasting in protest to something and are relatively relaxed then longer.)

There’s a lot of info on starvation. It’s not a new concept. A quick google search will help remedy issues with time frames. If you wanna starve a character though- remember it takes longer than a week with water. 

If you really want to speed it up- take their water away. You evil god of your universe. Strike them with drought!

Just saying:)

Bleeding Out

I should be writing one of the five on going fics I have but I’m not. I’m just not. No excuses. Just… that’s life.
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Ita-Hina
I have no plot. 
I make no excuses, there’s some serious OOC i think. Maybe? I dunno. 
May or may not continue this. Probably not. Not sure. I just needed space in my head. 
Inky

They sent her out for him alone as a test of her worthiness. Or at least that’s what she understood. She had been proving herself to the clan since she could walk and so it came as no surprise that a mission otherwise regarded as suicide would be given to her as though it were a thing wrapped in a silk bow. The smiles of her elders were coy, their eyes twinkling. It was practically Christmas at the Hyuuga Main House. 

She wasn’t sure what was the cause of cheer, her imminent death or perhaps the capture of a notorious S-ranked Criminal no one had yet to bring to justice by the hands of the Hyuuga Heiress. 

To be perfectly frank, she was fairly certain the first of the options was what had the men in her family all sparkly eyed. She had realized long ago that her worth was almost doubled if she died out in the battlefield in some tragic way. After all, that would leave room for the true muscle of the family, Hanabi to take the reigns, it would in-debt the village to the clan, it would give the clan cause to do some rather unsavory things as retribution to those who felled their Hime. Their Princess. Their sacrifice. 

Regardless, with a grim set to her jaw she had taken her orders and prepared for her mission, feeling the dryness of her throat and tongue inside her head like a bad omen of things to come. 

Anbu had been unsuccessful in bringing back the nightmarish Itachi, a whole clan had fallen to his hands at the tender age of 13 and yet here she was, single solitary Hinata Hyuuga, out on a mission to bring him back. No team, no back up. Just the endless black of an abyss before her in the onyx eyes of the murdering Uchiha.

“This is madness.” Neji’s voice had been shaking, his lips pale, his eyes wide. The stoic facade could not hide his terror. “How could they possibly think you-”

“I will do as requested.” Hinata murmured. “Perhaps, if I am lucky he will not kill me.” She lowered her head busying herself with her gear, although all of it looked like play things when the task at hand was really in her mind’s eye. What good were kunai against a tidal wave of Mangekyou? What was the point of exploding tags against nightmares killing her inside?

“But Hinata-”

Raising her pearl eyes to his reflective gaze his Hime smiled sadly, donning her pack onto her shoulder with tired slow movements. “What choice do I have, Neji-nii? What choice?” 

With the blood coursing through their veins, he knew there was none. 


When she finally found him it came as a shock. Like looking for a needle fallen on a carpet she had spread herself thin, her palms tracing over the smooth fabric expecting the prick of pain and finding nothing for months. 

And then all of a sudden there he was, a sharp point of pain and the first drops of blood that were soon to be followed by a torrent. 

He was still, several kilometers away, and even from a distance she could see the beat of his heart had slowed down to nearly nothing. Chakra flowed in odd twists and turns within his limbs and torso. When the rain began to fall she moved. 

Tsunade had been apologetic as she exited the village, her eyes searching her face before she donned the porcelain mask to hide her face. “Anbu are chosen for their skills not their rank, but I know your heart is not in this mission, or likely any I could use you for. For that I am sorry.” 

Hinata had held the mask in her hands, the feral face of a panther stared back at her with cut out unseeing eyes and she sighed deeply. “I am here to serve my Hokage, to protect my village, to bring honor to my clan.” Raising the pale gaze so prized by many she whispered. “I am honored you think me worthy of this mission.” 

The blonde smiled then as Hinata placed the mask on her face, the bite of the tattoo that had branded her still stung on her arm. 

“I chose you because you can say things like that with a straight face I almost believed. You think you’ll die… I think you may actually complete this and come back to us.” 

Behind the mask it was even easier still to lie and so Hinata had done so. “I trust the judgement of my mentor and Hokage, Tsunade-sama. I will see you soon.”

Her skills were a strange set, the main of which were her eyes of course and their ability to see far ahead, so far ahead that any sense of surprise should be neutralized. She was also an expert at covert missions, her skills not prized in head on battles were essential in the real espionage that gathered intel. And the last but not least of her credentials for this task…she was angelic. 

That was the thing that had her where she was, in the thickest forest of the Rain, where there was never a day where she wasn’t soaked to the bone and where Itachi had last been sighted. 

That one thing she had no control over was what her Hokage was betting would save her life. Something about the put together of her wide eyes, her soft features, her soft voice.

She didn’t sneak up on him but rather began walking with purposefully clumsy steps that she knew he could hear even through the fall of the rain. 

Her hands reached up and removed the panther mask, dropping it on the way, fingers undoing the gray flak jacket and tossing it aside. Sniffing deeply and getting herself in touch with her growing panic she wrapped her arm, burying the tattoo that would give her away even as she tore at the fabric of her shirt, and finally she slid a kunai over her cheek, letting it shed blood. 

Breathing slowly and carefully she kept her eyes down, bursting into the clearing and with a practiced widening of the eyes froze staring at the Uchiha whose rotating red gaze fixed itself on her. 

He took one long look, and as she stared, mouth parting open in shock he cocked his head. 

“…Hyuuga. What is a little dove like you doing out here all alone?”

What indeed?


What the Storm Brought In  Part Three of Three

It was one of the few days that the sky had not looked gray. Instead it was a slate of pure bright blue glass and he paused from walking along the beach to stare up at it. There were no clouds at all, nothing as far as his eyes could see and unbeknownst to him it caused the darkness of his gaze to recede. Hinata struggled through the entire day to not stare at the gems that glimmered in his face, focusing instead on the ground at her feet.

The sand always hid treasures if you knew where to look and they were crawling through the jumbles of rough seaweed plastered stones looking for smooth glittering shards of glass.

“It’s so dead in the house.” Hinata had whispered that morning. “I need color.”

He had thought that would mean she would paint something but instead she had pulled on thick boots and a coat and stood waiting for him, as though it was clear he was supposed to come along. He had avoided the beach, looking at the water made him feel both home sick and irritated with it, like being mad at a lover. But her expectant expression was enough to make him sigh and gather the clothes she handed to him, following her eventually outside.

There was never really any hope of not knowing what the weather was like in her house, as most of it was just glass. But no matter how much glass there was, the sky could simply not be captured in it. He turned slowly in a circle eyes up, trying to keep himself from feeling insignificant and failing.

“I guess… you never really looked at the sky that much before.” She murmured, watching intently. A slow calm shake of his head was his answer.

Smiling just a bit she turned back to the stones and flipped one, letting out a soft sound of distaste as tiny spider crabs scampered out from beneath it hurrying on their way to calmer abodes, travelling over her boots and getting tangled in her sleeves.

His fingers were suddenly there on the fabric of her sweater, tugging one adventurous crab off with his fingers and releasing it back onto the wet sand with a plop.

“The glass,” He nodded towards the bucket she had half full of various colors and shapes. “What will you do with it?”

Hinata shuffled the material in the bucket, making it rattle and release the perfume of the sea into the air of her face. “I’m not sure… but… I want the sun to touch it, in the house. I have some tiles too, that were supposed to be used in the bathroom but never got done. They’re blue, and green and… I dunno.” She shook it again nervously, unable to look up and meet his gaze when she knew he was studying her so intently.

He cocked his head a little at her and did not say more.

“Did… you find anything on the book shelves that you liked though?” Trying to change the subject sometimes worked with him. His intensity was almost as supernatural as his origin. There was an unwavering sense of self in his stare that almost rendered her mute sometimes. It occurred to her more than once that maybe she should ask what he was looking at but the thought of opening her mouth and saying anything almost seemed like blasphemy. He was staring because he could, because that’s what he wanted to do in the moment and that’s just who he was. End of story.

If only his story didn’t make her face overheat so much she would have been glad.

“Some.” He turned then and picked another piece of glass from the ground, turning the dark blue item in his fingers slowly.

“Oh?” She couldn’t help turning to study his face in that moment and he nodded thankfully without looking at her. “Someone named William Blake, and another…Yeats.” He put the piece of glass in her bucket, surprising her by the touch of his other hand on her elbow as he did it.

“And a couple of books about history.”

“Poetry.” She murmured, and her wide eyes screamed her confusion. Something happened to his face then, a soft wrinkling of the corners of his eyes, a pull to his lips and she realized he was smirking at her.

“What?”

“I just… I just… didn’t think… I’m not sure what I thought you would read but I didn’t really think it would be poetry..” she admitted slowly. “Blake is one of my favorites.” The last comment was quiet, almost for herself.

“It’s how we remember history back…” he had been going to say home and then paused, turning to look at the sea just a few steps away, moving gently against the sand as though it had never been angry in it’s life. Just a docile watery tear with no festering feelings at all.

“…home?” She peered at him, following his eyes to the water a few feet away. He shook his head.

“…this is home now.”

He moved to continue down the beach but paused, turning to look over his shoulder at her standing in the shade of the cliff side, lifting a hand to block the surprising burst of winter sun to his eyes so he could see her clearly.

She stood frozen, lips parted slightly and heavy with words she was struggling to say, a tension had taken over her body and he waited, knowing eventually she would whisper her thoughts if he let her.

“…I’m sorry I took your home from you.”

A movement in his shoulders happened at her words, as though her voice had been a shove to his chest, the start of a fight.

“You did no such thing.”

“If…I had not been there-”

“I made my choice.” He was glaring and it was unnerving so she looked at the water, only a five minute walk down the beach was where she had woken to his lips on hers and his breath in her lungs, effectively severing the ties to everything he had ever known without even being awake.

“…I was being selfish.” She admitted, flickering her eyes to him for only a second as the ferocity of his glare was too much to take even on one of her good days, with the sunshine brightening the world and the sea a calm whisper of herself.

He shrugged, and turned around to keep walking again, pulling her along with an invisible tether she was unaware of. “There was nothing left for me there.” His voice was quiet and she strained to hear it over the soft waves lapping at the rocks.

The silence was thankfully punctuated by the cries of seagulls as they meandered around the curve of the harbor, gathering more glass every few steps in the quiet. Despite the calm he could feel something in her, her face seemed strained, as though she were clenching her jaw until finally he sighed and looked at her, almost tiredly.

“What is it?”

“What…what happened to you?” She didn’t stop shuffling the sand with her hand, the skin of her fingers and palm coated in it’s coarseness. Her body would smell like salt and sea and wild air for several hours after they got home and he would be both interested in it and also happy when she finally showered and returned to the flowery perfume that made his stomach tight and his hands shake.

“They died.” He knew what she was asking, despite her lack of articulation and she looked at him again, with the same fixated fascination that had transfixed her in her studio months ago.

“I’m sorry.”

“We were a warrior clan.” He shook his head. “They died well.”

“…but you…”

His gaze left her then, moved out to the sky again as if searching it’s vastness for words. “I was spared. I hunted him down.”

“…the one who spared you?”

“Yes.”

Hinata waited, watching as he looked back down at his hands, studying them. They had not changed much since the loss of his home, they remained long fingered, wide palmed and strong. She didn’t know what he could do with those hands and he wondered if he wanted her to know.

“I just had that one purpose.” He lifted his shoulders and then glanced at her. “After he was gone, there was nothing.”

“…so you looked for…a Sufine.” An exit.

Somehow the idea that he had killed and seen killing was not surprising. There was a depth to his gaze that spoke of things she would not understand, one that came when blood and death had been handed out and observed. She dragged in a breath, and stood. “…I guess the stories should have been more accurate about people like me.” she muttered, lacing her arms behind her back.

His eyes lingered on her a moment longer before turning around. “I am glad they were not.”


The clouds had been chased away by winds and when the darkness fell she had opened the door and stepped outside without a word to him, leaving the freezing air to filter through the house with the tang of salt and sea on it’s currents.

He found her out there standing at the outcrop of rock that overlooked the winding path and the beach where he had found her, looking not out to the rolling whispering ocean but to the sky, her hair a cascade of darkness against the white of her painting smock.

Following the trail of her neck up to the heavens he paused and breathed in deep.

Down below, in some of the furthest darkest recesses of the ocean there was a world that sparkled as this one did. The expanse of the sky was all consuming, a slate of navy and purple and black that was smeared with pinpricks of light in dazzling patterns and swirls throughout. Abruptly and without warning a flash of light would begin on one end of the heavens streaking through in a flurry of light and fire disappearing into the darkness like it had never been. The idea that something so breathtaking could be unseen if he had blinked made him feel a little sick with something like desire.

His almost gasp made her turn to look at him, a smile on her face at the obvious stillness that had overcome his limbs despite the freezing snap of the cold wind through his shirt and sweater.

“I love the sky of the sea.” She whispered softly, turning to look back up at it as well. “I had…forgotten.”

The air smelled cleaner, the ocean sounded mournful and the scent of her was light, a feather on the wind that touched him.

“This is why you live here.”

It wasn’t a question because he was sure that’s what it was and when her gaze drifted to him she seemed surprised despite her slow nod. “Yes.”

“And… other things.” She admitted, turning to go back inside. He hesitated to follow, although curiosity eventually drew his limbs inside, shutting out the bite of the cold for the warmth of the living room with the fire blazing in it’s white marble grate.

Her steps were light, and the smell of her had changed again, something spicy and exciting, sparkling like the streaks of the falling stars that had ripped through the heavens. Following it like a hound he found himself in the doorway of her studio, watching her shifting through the canvases with faces, tossing some aside until she pulled out a frame as long as she was tall, and about half a foot wide.

Knowing he was standing behind her the way she knew the calm crash of the waves were sounding down below she spoke without looking. “Like this.” She turned to him then, showing him the expanse of the painting she held.

In the frame a wash of green spread wide, pines and ferns, the dew drops on each leaf and the bold overwhelming height of mountains behind it. His eyes scanned the image for a moment before taking a step towards it.

She studied him, watching the color of his eyes brighten as they roved over the image. Raising his gaze back to her she smiled, satisfied with the reaction.

“We can go there tomorrow.”

He didn’t even have to ask.


The forest had beckoned with a kind of ferocity that neither of them had really anticipated and when they reached it they had entered with a sort of abandon, like diving from a cliff into the depths of the sea. The rain however, had snuck up on them as though it had been waiting for them to stop paying attention to the heavens and begun to come down with a fury that surprised them both.

The trees stretched up high and tall around them, swaying to the rhythm of the wind that had brought them the downpour. The pines stood on tip toes, trying to tickle the under bellies of the gray clouds with their pointy tips.

They had not been walking long, barely half an hour up the hill and the torrent had begun. Just long enough for Sasuke to be overwhelmed by the vastness of the world he now belonged to before the sea came calling after him in the form of the clouds.

His balance was better than hers now, and she was a little envious. His dexterity and movement came naturally after awhile, once the idea of gravity and resistance became second nature. So it came as no surprise to either of them when she slid along a particularly mossy slimy bit of trail and ended up on her butt in a puddle.

“Ugh!” Hinata gasped, blushing furiously and thankful for the dimming light of the afternoon sun as she sat on the ground, coated completely in mud. His hand came into her line of vision and she looked up at him, freezing at the sight of a half smile on his lips.

For a moment she could not move, the water was pouring off his chin and taking dives off the edges of his lips, clinging to his eyelashes like dew, leaving rivulets of liquid down his cheeks. For a moment she could see him, with the bright green and blue of the fins hiding behind his ears, his pupils had been huge the night she met him, nearly the entirety of his iris. He was otherworldly, and strange, and yet he was smirking at her, hand outstretched.

Before she waited a beat too long she took his fingers in hers, feeling their grip and started as he hauled her easily to her feet, gripping her hand as they began to run again.

“It’s everywhere.” Sasuke’s voice was half a shout over the torrent. The rain had no qualms about it’s force, there was little wind just the perpetual haul of a river coming down overhead.

They had wandered off the path and Hinata was starting to regret that decision more and more as they scampered over fallen logs and drenched bits of landscape. The feel of soaked pine branches leaving their wetness along their clothes lost its effect within minutes of the rain and now worried that they would get turned around in the depths of the forest she stopped, looking slowly around herself.

The trees seemed thicker, and with the clouds blocking the sun there was no light to guide the way, no way to see where the sun was in it’s travel through the heavens.

“Um…” she began, too quiet for him to hear her in the wash of the rain. Slowly she turned to look at him over her shoulder and stopped.

Like so many times before he was looking straight up in her moment of stillness, wincing against the rain that threatened to make his eyes cry with it. In the wildness of the trees he seemed to belong. His hair was pushed back from his face and with the paleness of his throat exposed to her wandering eyes she shifted within her clothes, feeling uncomfortable and desperate at the same time.

Feeling her gaze on him he turned, meeting her pale eyes with his near black ones.

“It’s that way.” He turned and pointed breaking the stillness of their stare.

“…How did you know?” she blinked, pushing through the under bush towards him again, and then gasped feeling the ground give way beneath her hard.

The dirt had turned to mud that was closer to water than solid and gasping she clawed at the shifting ground, his voice ringing through the heavy rainfall with her name. Through the breaking of the branches and the tug of the earth beneath her jeans she drew in air sharply, more surprised by the sound of him above her than the stomach wrenching feel of the fall.

With a smack that was wet and thick she stopped, crumbled on her knees at the bottom of the small ravine that had been hidden by the wide leafed dense bush, shuddering in the cold and stickiness of the mud.

Swallowing thickly she peered upwards towards the heavens in time to see him holding on to a tree branch and peering over the edge only ten or twelve feet above her. Panic lingered on his face she had never seen before.

“Hinata!”

It occurred to her then that his voice was like a siren song. It sounded melodic even in his fear, and blinking rapidly she moved to stand and then stopped, rethinking it when her lungs gave protest. The impact had not been bad but she was panting to catch her breath.

“I’m… I’m okay!”

With the crack of branches and the slip and slide crunch of rolling mud he landed beside her, light on his feet and elegant even when covered in dirt. Eyeing him tiredly she waved at herself.

“I’m… I’m sorry. I’m not…very coordinated.” Her voice was wobbly as her legs, and holding on to the melting ravine wall she dragged herself to her feet, feeling his grip on her arm tightly.

“You scared me.” His voice was cloaked in the fall of the rain but she looked up at the sound anyway, surprise blooming on her features as she stared back. He blinked rapidly, as if equally surprised by his statement, removing his grip on her like it burned.

Licking the rain from her lips she sighed and changing the subject inspected her muddy clothes, shaking her head. “…it doesn’t matter where I go… I always feel so much like a fish out of water.”

A sound that was almost a laugh came out of him then and she turned again, not surprise but shock on her face. He looked incredulous and pressing a hand to his forehead shook his head a smirk so wide it could almost be called a smile lingered on his mouth.

“I don’t think you get to say that around me.”

Nervous and trembling she started, blinking the rain from her lashes and then burst out laughing, burying her face in her hands at the sound of his chuckle along with her.

“I am so sorry.” She finally sighed, leaning against the tree closest to her to catch her breath. Her hand was on her stomach where it hurt from laughing. She couldn’t remember the last time that had happened, it made her cheeks hurt and her torso feel like she had done sit ups.

He shook his head briefly, still smirking just a bit and then peered up above, eyeing the distance. “We may need to climb.”

Wrinkling her nose she followed his gaze and bit her lip, considering the possibility of not being able to get out with the pouring mud tugging against her.

“I will help you.” Turning back to him she blinked, seeing his calm expression again. He was unconcerned, even comfortable in the fierceness of the rain. There was no worry or trepidation, just a stillness that had not been there before. She felt a tug on her lips, realizing.

“You’re happy.”

It wasn’t a question, and he cocked his head a little at her, extending his hand in answer. Trusting him, she took his hand in reply.


They arrived at the house just in time for the rain to turn into half melted snow, the sleet followed and soon after hard painful knocks against the window began with hail.

Standing in the entryway Hinata sighed, watching the mud coming off their disgusting jackets leaving smears of chocolate colored grime in the white tile.

The pounding of the hail was different than the rain, more aggressive and nerve wrecking when the glass shuddered under it’s finger taps. Warily she eyed the gray of the sky beyond her see through walls, turning just in time to see him rip of his soaked shirt, moving to his pants without a care.

“Ah- no!” she began and they froze together, listening suddenly not to the hail but the firm knock, knock, knock of someone at the door.

His black gaze turned wonderingly to her pale gray and they stared at one another for a breath.

The reaction on Sasuke’s face was a war between confusion and incredulity as he stared at the doorway. “What-?” He began and she shook her head rapidly, putting a finger to her lips and choking the words on his tongue.

“Please… go to my room, okay?”

Slowly, and perhaps a little irritably he turned and headed up the stairs, his dark eyes piercing her as they turned away and he stepped into her bedroom on the loft floor.

Sucking in a breath that didn’t seem to want to fill her lungs completely Hinata turned to the door where another polite, firm, familiar knock sounded.

Licking her lips she pulled the handle and peered outside, meeting the face she had expected to see from the start.

“Cousin.” She whispered.

Familiar gray eyes looked back at her, filled with concern that she was unsure she wanted to trust.

He listened in the hallway, wondering why he was standing there, eavesdropping. Her voice was gentle, if a little defensive but he couldn’t quite make out what was being said over the din of the hailstorm. aAnd whoever it was although invited in didn’t appear to intend to stay.

All he knew was that he could hear it was a male voice, deep and dark like the ocean waters beyond the deepest trenches and the concern was evident even to him.

Something was festering in his chest as he listened, searching her voice and the tones she used for clues, tearing it apart in his mind even as he struggled not to go down the stairs.

The conversation could not have lasted five minutes, and then the door closed and he heard her sigh. Peering from above he studied the droop of her shoulders and the way her hands pushed through her dark hair at the crown of her head, dragging through tiredly.

He couldn’t wait until she turned, until she walked up the stairs. His words were right at the edge of his lips, prying his mouth open with impatience.

“Who was that?”

Startled, Hinata turned, her soaked sweater hanging from her small shoulders as tiredly as they drooped.

“Why… why aren’t you showering? You’re…you’re going to catch a cold.” She stuttered, starting slowly up the stairs after him. He ignored her cold comment, she had made it before and he had not understood and still didn’t care.

“Who was that?”

Closing her eyes she walked slowly past him into the room, removing her sweater carefully before tossing it in the laundry basket by the open closet door.

“…um… just… he was just…”

Her reluctance to answer was making his fingers fidget, he ran a finger along the hard hem of his jeans at his waist, trailing her cold shuddering form with his eyes as though it would give him the answers her mouth refused to surrender. These creatures of the shore, they were different than his own. He knew that. The stories were vague, but he knew one thing they had that his people did not. Abruptly, and before he had thought through what he was saying words were snapping out of his mouth.

“Is he your mate?”

An expression he had never seen before on her face flickered over her features, like the cracking of porcelain as she grimaced. “No! No… he’s… he’s family, he’s my cousin. I don’t have a…” she blanched for a moment and then finished with some clear discomfort. “…I don’t have a…mate.”

His eyes had never been quite this unreadable, there was something in them that glimmered and caused the blue to shine but nothing about his face was familiar, it’s impassiveness was marred, even the relaxed hang of his limbs from his torso seemed different.

Keeping her eyes from his bare chest she turned and began to dig out clothes from her closet for both of them. “Do…do you have a…mate? Do you miss her?”

His reaction merited looking over despite the lack of shirt. He seemed confused, his head cocked just the slightest bit to the right, tossing his mane of wild black hair to the side. “No…I have no one. I was the last of my clan.” There was a pause in which she forced herself not to sigh, remembering she had known that. Still, she kept moving her arms in the closet despite already having everything she needed, as if searching for something to say in there.

“…we do not mate, we… are born from pearl eggs.”

She turned then, mouth agape. “You…you what?”

He was watching her with care and she noticed a movement about his shoulders, as though he were tightening with slight discomfort at her tone.

“But you have a belly button.” Her eyes went straight to the little circle on his stomach and he looked down, following the trail of her eyes, the confusion mounting on his face.

“Yes.” Then, slowly as though trying to follow her thought. “You do as well.”

“But… but…”

Her confusion was making something happen inside him as he watched, a tugging at his belly that intensified with the tightening of her shoulders and the widening of her eyes. Cocking his head he took a step towards her and before she could stop him with her hands full he had the edge of her shirt in his grip. The wet material pealed off her stomach as he lifted it. The ivory skin was pricked with goosebumps from the cold, but there was the belly button, a dimple in her smooth torso.

“How were you born?” His eyes lifted to her, and he paused, seeing the panic in her face for the first time. Stepping back sharply he frowned.

“I can’t.. I can’t…um…” Pushing her shirt down with her free hand she took a towel from the open closet beside her and pressed it to her chest.

“I am going to have a shower.” She whispered, eyes down as she turned and vanished into the bathroom, door closing quietly behind her.

Sasuke frowned after her, puzzled. Curiously he glanced at the mirror in her closet where his reflection looked back, one hand lingering near his belly button.


Although the questions lingered he did not ask, again. And as the days went by she began to hope that they would not have to discuss it further, ever, if possible.

Instead she focused on painting, her empty canvases beginning to take on a life of their own, their expressions and faces coming to the light in stroke by slow stroke of her brushes on their rough surfaces.

Usually she painted alone, but on the third day of spending hours entranced, her hands stroking blues and greens and yellows through the darkness of an endless void she felt the soft prickling of someone watching and turned.

He was standing at the door, arms crossed studying her as she moved. There was no way to know how long he had been there in the silence and she stared, lips parted in protest that never made it out of her mouth.

Two calm steps and he was beside her studying the canvas with a calm aloof expression. Heat was rising to her face and she stared down at her palette, scrambling to find words that would hide her in the moment of vulnerability among the brightness of her lights and the white of her studio walls.

In the canvas the ocean swirled, a depth made intense by the darkness and the lingering light that flooded from a single solitary source beyond the reach of the frame.

It was his silhouette in the shadows, but Hinata had not made a small fortune for herself by being bad at what she did, and his likeness showed. In the sharpness of his chin, the length and straight cut of his nose, the tousle of his water swept hair, the smooth long fingers.

Turning his head just a bit to the side he breathed in softly beside her.

“…you…” Hinata began, and winced at the half whisper that escaped her throat. “…you have to say something.”

He turned half to her then, dark eyes set on her face, their calmness changed if only for a moment as he studied her, setting her face to flame, a knot in her belly tightening until electricity seemed to run through her limbs.

The gaze that inspired the image glowed at her and she flinched away from it. She had not done it justice on the canvas yet again.

A touch made her start, his fingers trailing through the sheet of her hair and to her cheek. “You seem to know a lot about a place you’ve never been to.” He murmured, withdrawing his hand at the feel of the heat radiating from her skin.

Hinata stayed still, searching the paleness of her studio for something that would be calming.

“…I can imagine though.”

“Hm.” He stepped back, the pull was hard, her scent flowery and soft, over powering despite the scent of paint and thinner.

Before she could say anything else he had disappeared out the door and she covered her eyes with her hand, blocking out the inadequacies of the canvas on her stand.

As the tangle of feelings inside her chest began to ebb away she shifted, feeling the buzz of her phone in her pocket for the third time that day. Sighing she lifted the device to her face, reading the words on the screen with a tiredness that no amount of sleep would help. Shoulders drooping she let the hard block of technology drop from her hand to the floor with a crack, hoping it would break.


“I have to… go away… for awhile.”

He was laying on one of the couches in the living room under a pile of blankets so thick he seemed more of a cocoon than a person. His eyes lifted from the book in his hands to her and the sun glistened on them. It didn’t get old. She could stare at him for hours in the light.

“Away?” He pushed himself up and the blankets tumbled off of him. Outside the window the wind was blasting at the house with a vengeance, trying to reclaim the outcrop of rocks on which it was built by sheer force of will alone. Across the harbor the clouds were starting to gather for their impending attack on the town on the other side of their crescent beach and soon it would reach them, dumping the snow in piles that blocked huge chunks of the windows, the ice clinging to the glass.

“Yes.” Hinata steadied the shake in her voice. “I will be away for three days… and two nights.”

His eyes didn’t move from her face, waiting.

“My family… expects me for Christmas and I…” She hesitated for a moment, looking at him, at the fragility of what he was. She would not risk it, if she didn’t go at least for those three days they would come looking for her, asking questions, demanding space in her life where there was none she wanted to give.

And if she took him with her they would mangle him, as only the Hyuuga could.

“Christmas.” He whispered it again.

She glanced at the books that had been pulled from her shelves and left strewn throughout the living room, studying the faces of the familiar pieces. Surprised she lifted a large encyclopedia of human anatomy in one hand, measuring it’s weight.

“If I do not go they will come looking for me.” She murmured, opening the book in her arms to glance through it’s pages so she didn’t have to look at his face. “Maybe I can get away even sooner.”

“Okay.”

She looked up, confused that there were no questions and yet not surprised at the same time. He studied her with his impassive gaze and she sighed, reading the inquiry there. “They would know that something was different about you… they would sense it.”

“They think that of you too.” He could read her more easily and had been able to for longer than she liked to admit. Looking away she lifted her shoulders in an answer that was neither a yes or a no.

“I have prepared food though, for the next couple of days. And I will be back as soon as I can.” She rubbed her hands along her thighs to dispel the stickiness of her nerves from her palms. “Perhaps it will snow.”

He nodded and looked out to the clouds. “The sky is angry today.”

“Yes.” Hinata turned her eyes to follow his to the window where the heavens rolled and twisted as though in pain and fury, their gray and white plumes almost like smoke from a billowing fire.

He watched her, interested in the fact that her gaze, like the heavens looked frustrated and upset as well.


She left in the morning. They woke as they always did, staring at each other, only this time the urge to touch her won out and he felt his fingers trail along her hand for two seconds before he reigned himself back, feeling something akin to embarrassment at the movement.

The touch had made her pale cheeks brighten to apples on her skin and as she shifted the sweetness of her body lingered in the air she moved to get up, abandoning him to hug her pillow, face buried in the fabric while she showered, eyes closed, wondering why he always thought of her mouth.

At the front door she had lingered with something he thought might be uncertainty, hesitating at the exit to watch the fat flakes of white that were drifting down from above in slow lazy swirls as the breeze began to pick up.

“Hm.” Sasuke sighed, stretching his hand out and watching it land on his flesh only to disappear, the cold raindrop that morphed out of the ice absorbed into his skin.

She watched him and gripping her bag tightly whispered. “I’ll be back soon.”

Dark eyes turned back to her with interest. He felt the tug of his limbs towards hers, the desire to press her body to his puzzling even as he stepped back into her house with a slow nod, dragging each extremity inside and away. “Okay.”

She left, the growing tension mounting like the snow as the car pulled away. Her house made of glass and metal and stone hunched against the beat of the growing wind in her review mirror and inside it he was alone. As she had been.

Her hands struggled on the wheel, hesitating, agonizing, and even after she hit the highway she had not really made up her mind. But it was just too late to turn around, so she continued on, wishing she could be home.

As he watched the red of the vehicle tail lights disappear in the distance he wondered when the snow would stop.

It didn’t.

Through the night and day it fell, soft feathery puffs of white that danced in the whirlwinds of the ocean sighs. At times it was sharp angled slices of ice that fell like meteorites, bent on piling up around the house, covering inches and then feet of the windows at the floor level so that the glass fogged with the heat from inside.

Her absence was a sort of empty echo, and in the stillness of an already quiet house he heard the silence almost like a painful grinding on his ear drums.

Reading distracted him for the first day, but the night was difficult. Wrapped in her blankets and breathing in the scent of her made him twist and turn through the rotation of the moon in the sky, blowing snow flurry kisses at him in the dark.

The realization that beneath the waves, or above them the only point of contact in his life was her face made a small insignificant panic begin to take root.

What if she never returned?

What if she had left with no intentions of coming back?

What if something happened to her out there where he could not see, hear or help?

He began to pace, moving through the house touching edges and doorways, memorizing the feel of the place and wondering if he had indeed died when he pressed his mouth to hers, giving her the air she needed and therefore ending himself. It was possible, because the slow tick of the clock and the lazy absent minded movement of the light across the floor signalling day to night was a torture he had not thought of. It was hell, pain through breaths counted, seconds passed.

His wanderings took him to places in the house he had never bothered to ponder about. Including a doorway in the kitchen that led to a dark unlit stairwell going down, further into the ground, a third level that he had never known existed.

His steps creaked on the rough untreated wood stairs and the smell of damp and cold sifted upwards into his nose.

The cement was unfinished and coarse against the smoothness of his palms and when he reached the bottom landing he studied the place, noting the squat space was not meant for walking in. Too short to even really bend and walk it was empty, save for a half dozen boxes that sat ignored by the steps, covered in a layer of dust and grit that left gray on his fingers as he opened them.

The light from the kitchen upstairs was filtering down in gray scales to the place where he crouched, and as the last flap of the box opened a glimmer of blue and green reflected it’s brightness. Shining dully with their sleepy dusty faces the tiles were of various shapes and sizes, some as big as his thumb, others his palm and none were of the same color blue or green.

Transfixed he smoothed his finger over the hardness of the tile, recognizing the ceramic material instantly. One of the few things that survived the sea’s corrosive power was tile, and although they didn’t make their own, finding ship wrecks with materials that were similar was not uncommon.

Slowly he uncovered the other boxes, moving his hand over the brightness of the small squares before picking one up and heading upstairs to find the glass they had gathered from the beach.


In the house she was a ghost. There were images on the walls of a woman who had her face, her eyes, her mouth her cheeks, all put together in the same place. She was regal and smiling and her hair flowed like the ink black depths of the ocean currents. She was dead.

Her family seemed to forget that her mother and Hinata were not the same person. Her mother had been frail, but determined, her weakness buoyed her strength and with sheer force of will her world turned at her beck and call until she stopped turning with it.

The disappointment of who Hinata was and the contrast of what she looked like was an unforgivable offense, and returning home always reminded her of it. Only her cousin and occasionally her sister would soothe her after the lashings of her father’s tongue.

Around her the twinkle lights, the delicate snowflakes made of glass that her sister loved so much and the enormous 10 foot Christmas tree dominated the landscape of their elegant home.

Kids that were familiar only because of their intense pale gray eyes ran through the house in fancy clothes, and a smell of cinnamon and spices drifted through the rooms along with the jazz music that someone had put on in the background, soothing the lilting voices of her relatives.

Handing her a glass filled with blood red wine she was unlikely to drink her sister sat beside her. She was similar and yet hard where any edges on Hinata had been sanded down by time. “Here. I’d be downing that if I were you. We just got started for the holidays.” the younger Hyuuga murmured, taking a long sip of her own cup.

Hinata twirled her wrist with the glass in hand, watching the depth of the red circle over the windows of it’s house and worried that if Sasuke was hurt there would be no one to help for days. “Thank you.” She murmured without conviction, and Hanabi sighed, glancing at her cousin then.

“You’ve been even less..present.. than usual this last year.” Neji finally added, glancing back to see where his uncle was and if they should be making a retreat to a different room. But the family had arrived en force and the sound of booming voices and the crinkle of gifts being placed under the tree was dominating, hiding their conversation.

“…I’ve been busy.” She raised her shoulders, wondering how fast merpeople healed. If he needed a hospital would they be able to go to one? Would they notice something in his body or blood that was different?

“With?” Hanabi’s question was kind, but loaded and Hinata looked out the window to the ever falling snow. It had not stopped since she had arrived and through the night she had stayed up watching it with worry. If it didn’t slow down getting home would be difficult.

“…have you been painting?” Neji was not one to pry, and his usually stoic disposition made it clear that he was desperate for some shred of information if he was willing to ask a second question. Swallowing hard Hinata put her glass down, rubbing her hands together. “I…just needed to take some time to think, after what happened.”

Something happened to their bodies in response to her words and she studied out of the corner of her eye as they glanced at each other, shoulders both tensing and tightening at the mention of the past.

“…Naruto…asks about you regularly.” Hanabi supplied softly.

The wince was involuntary to the point she felt her body was not her own and she stood, rubbing the sudden ache from her arms. “I don’t really want to talk about this.” She murmured and moved to go, feeling the grip of her cousin’s hand on her shoulder.

“Hinata. He was just… a chapter, for you. There’s so much story left.” Gray eyes roamed her face and were surprised when they turned to look back with a calm he had not seen for some time.

“I know.” Blinking rapidly Hinata felt the lack of lie on her tongue and pondered that. “I hope he’s happy…with her.”

Hanabi made a face, the disgust tangible in the air around her. “I don’t.” She stared at her sister’s worried frown. “I don’t. The car accident should have made him propose to you, not leave you for that girl while you were both in the ICU.”

“It clarified things for him, nearly dying does that to people.” Hinata stopped, the sound of her voice had risen, the force behind it backed with first hand knowledge. Swallowing she lowered her gaze, realizing she was probably revealing too much even as she spoke.

The silence lingered too long after her statement and turning once more to the window she fretted, hands tightening and loosening together as the snow began to fall with earnest.

“…I hope this stops…how am I going to drive home in this?”

“I really don’t think you will be going anywhere.” Hanabi let out a soft sound that was almost a scoff. “Father won’t allow us out in that, I guarantee it.”

“It wouldn’t be safe, Hinata.” Neji’s voice agreed, and she watched their pale reflections on the glass looking at her instead of the snow outside.

Jaw clenching she turned, heading to her room to pack despite their words.


He found his head turning towards the window at the front of the house, where her car would come sliding like a black knife through the white expanse of the snow, but it didn’t. As night began to fall his hands began to shake, and although he ignored it the tightness in his belly intensified making eating revolting and sleeping impossible.

Smoothing out the cement in the bucket he had found with the tiles he breathed in deeply and tried to remain calm, even as the light outside faded, and the moon rose high and tall, her face hiding behind the cover of the snowfall.

He worked straight through the night, moving the tiles onto the wall where the kitchen received the most light. He had had to move one of the shelves to bare the expanse of white un-decorated panel. It never occurred to him to wonder if she would be upset. The subtle boil of his own distaste was wavering in his blood stream as he waited, sliding the tiles into place on the wall bit by bit, eyes flickering from his work, to the driveway that never lit with the headlights he expected.

The idea of going upstairs and smelling her on the sheets made him feel sick. Like the empty room where she had first wanted him to be, she was fading with each day. Soon the sheets would smell like nothing, just him and the break down of fibers.

He couldn’t sit there and breathe her in anyway, the images of her eyes, the feel of her long hair between his finger tips or her mouth pressed into a smooth pink smile made the cells of his skin hurt, aching through the evening, refusing to let him sleep.

The paint sheet he had found down below with the tiles caught most of the debris of his work on the wall. With the time he found the tiles practically drifted to their places, sitting comfortably next to each other. In the water placing them had been more difficult as each one had to be fitted into stone that breathed with life. Eventually the life beneath the sea would claim mosaics anyway, destroying them, rendering the people who lived below the ocean waves nothing but a forgotten dream.

By contrast here the tiles glimmered, happily sitting in their new home as he pushed them into place. This thing, with nothing but air and light to touch it would last forever if it wanted to. There was no water, no salt, no drag on it to destroy it. But then, what good would it do if there was no one to look at it? His gaze fluttered then again to the darkness of the driveway, where the snow billowed outside with madness.

What good was it if it was left alone?


The walk began when she finally, after many stops and a few frightening moments of being stuck made it to the dirt road that led to her house on the cliff side.

The snow was deep but the wind from the sea had done her the favor of pushing most of it to the side against the trees and black berry bushes that tangled up the shoulder of the road during the summer time. With her cell phone to her ear she had walked, arms wrapped tightly around herself after abandoning her vehicle in the dark of the predawn morning.

“I’m sorry, Neji-nii.” She whispered it softly, trying to keep her teeth from chattering.

“Whatever is happening, Hinata, I wish you would talk to me. Uncle is very upset that you left without letting anyone know. Especially with the weather the way it is.. It’s not safe. I’m shocked you made it to your road.”

“I know. I’m sorry to worry everyone.”

“Were we such bad company that you had to get back home so quickly? Why do you like being alone so much, I’m… I’m so concerned for you, Hinata.”

She had breathed in slowly then, trying to think of how to respond, to explain that it wasn’t that she wanted to be alone, but quite the opposite.

“I…I have someone I…” she began and then stuttered on the silence that tasted so much like shock transferring through the phone.

You have someone?” His voice sounded incredulous.

“I have to go, Neji-nii. Please, please apologize to father for me.”

“You can’t just- Hinata, who are you talking about?”

The house suddenly appeared through the white of the swirling snow and Hinata stopped, seeing the door open, swallowing the knot in her throat at the sight of the familiar shape that stood looking straight up into the snowflakes twirling down in soft freezing pirouettes.

“I have to go.”

“Hinata- wait.”

“Neji, I love you. Bye.”

And she hung up, focusing for once on something that made her heart beat faster and not the disappointed voices of her family in her head.

Her voice was breathless and it startled him. He had been so focused on the feel of the snow kissing his face, the touch of the flakes landing on his cheeks with a tickle of pain from the cold, a small pinprick of dislike before melting and turning to a soft drooly touch as they melted.

Above the sky was a blueish gray and the snow fell in patterns he could almost trace but turned too complicated within seconds of watching. Nature was too clever for him.

“Sasuke.”

He blinked, and turned to her.

The snow, the ice, the wind, it was all over her, coating her in it’s fresh and wild flavors but her scent was still there, it lifted through the fibers of her clothing, tangled in her hair and drifted with the snowflakes into his face.

Dark eyes pensive he studied her pink cheeks from the cold, her gray eyes filled with tears that he wasn’t sure how to interpret. He had been wrestling with the panic through the sleepless night, worry making him almost angry, frustrated that there was no way he could find her in the vastness of her world. But now she was there, breathing deeply, cold pale fingers tense at her chest.

The pull was not a pull, but a binding. The control it took to keep from moving towards her took his breath away. Almost as much as seeing her take three rapid steps towards him, wrapping her arms around his torso with her face buried in his chest, shoulders trembling.

“I’m sorry I’m so late.”

From breathing in the remnant touch of her on the pillows to feeling her pressed to him he flinched and trembled, unsure of what his body would do in response to the contact. Unsure too of what was happening to his blood flow. It had spiked and it thundered, muting the constant sound of the ocean that was the soundtrack to his life.

Hands moving of their own accord he felt for the first time the curve of her hips to her waist beneath the cover of her jacket, the smallness of her shoulder blades and the smooth watery silk of her hair against the backs of his hands.

It felt, like walking into the ocean from the beach after having lost his scales. It felt like drowning. The panic surprised him and taking a step back sharply he sucked in air, staring at her like she was something new and frightening, unable in that moment to keep the expression from marring his usually calm features.

Hinata stared back, shoulders tight around herself, equally confused.

“I…made something.” he stuttered, surprised by the trip of his voice, by the heat that was engulfing his body despite the freezing touch of the winter that swarmed around them.

Her face fluctuated between confusion and curiosity and something else that was making his stomach clench fervently.

“Made something?”

Unable to restrain himself completely he reached out, grabbing her pale fingers in his hand and dragging her in.

It didn’t matter why she was late, the point was she was there, with rain in the clouds of her eyes and the electric tingle of her skin between his fingers. That’s what was important, that and keeping his breath from escaping his lungs as her smell overwhelmed him.

He pulled her, hardly giving her time to close the door behind them before they were standing in the kitchen with their backs to the blast of the white snowy morning facing the 12 foot wall that he had bared and then doused in color.

The tiles were small and large in places, but they took her breath away as they captured the light. He had taken the entirety of the empty wall, and with each piece created a mosaic that was at once his gaze and the way light filtered through the ocean from above. Darkness lingered at the edges, growing lighter and more pure in it’s blue and green towards the center where the sun was trying to touch it’s ocean brother. The sea glass danced throughout, glimmering with sparks of color.

The circular motion of the tiles was intricate, it had twist and turns in the patterns, and yet no form at all, like the way the waves danced. Raising a hand to her mouth she stared and remembered to breathe.

“…I haven’t…loved anything this much in such a long time…” Delicately she reached out, pressing her fingers to the smoothness of the greens and blues.

Something released in his chest at her words, and a sigh escaped him that made her turn to look, meeting his gaze.

“…what is that?” He said suddenly, and she felt herself tense at his breathless tone. The hunger in his face.

“What do you mean?”

Her perfume was overwhelming now, it was not a cloud but a mist he was losing himself in. The desire to touch her, to taste her making his hands feel hot and cold, his mouth dry. “You… you smell different.”

Startled she looked down at herself and then back up at him in confusion. “What?”

“You… I can…” He took a hesitant step forward and she started, the feel of his fingers on her cheek and chin so new they felt like the bite of electricity. “Your body… wants something from me… I can smell it on your skin.”

Eyes widening Hinata felt herself take a step back, her chest heaving with air that wasn’t helping her feel less breathless. “What? No…” Flustered she turned, heading up the stairs, fingers stumbling to undo her jacket buttons.

“I… I have to change.”

“Wait.” He was behind her and she felt for a moment the desire to escape tangling with the feeling of wanting to stop, to watch him and the way his eyes flickered to her mouth again and again.

In her room she scrambled to remove her wet sweater, shaking visibly even as she dragged out clean clothes from her drawers. He stood watching her, and the way his chest was rising and falling rapidly didn’t escape her notice.

“Hinata, stop.”

“You’re wrong, I don’t.. I don’t want anything from you.” Her voice was a traitor, it twisted in her vocal chords before coming out weak kneed and helpless. The lie didn’t even fool her and hesitantly she pressed a hand to her face, hiding the rising heat to her cheeks.

He swallowed, so hard she could hear it. It was all over her, on her face, on her skin on her hair, it was in the air and he was drinking it, shaking as it entered his lungs and commanded his attention. Like being offered water after crawling through a desert, he struggled with the almost pain of standing there, apart.

“Then you want me. You are all want.”

His words had the desired effect of making her look at him, her hands tight at her sides as though ready for a fight although her lips were parted in something like panic.

His body was taut with the tension of pulling back, of keeping himself separate from her even as he felt the desire to mesh himself with her so there would be no distinguishing where he started and she began. Breath shaking as it traveled in his body he stepped closer, wondering if this was the correct choice despite the scream of his body saying yes.

Desperate, he had her in his grip before she could gasp out his name, his lips hovered over hers, making the pain in his stomach tighten, a coil of agony that needing soothing.

“What… is this?” He was so confused, almost angry as he trembled. His confusion was so close to panic that she felt a shard of pain anchor itself in her chest along with all her fears.

How could she explain without making the action cheap, the tension untrue? How could she alleviate the anxiety in his eyes?

“…do you want?” Her mouth somehow found words that made sense, and he started as if it was something he had not thought of. His chest lifted with a breath that shook painfully, releasing the word with force.

“Yes.”

She was terrified and he could see it, it was the same look she had had when the ocean had taken her alive, accepting the offering of her life only to trade it for his. Despite the terror she had walked into it, shaking. The same trepidation made her limbs shudder, and eyes glow as she stood on tiptoes and pressed her mouth to his.

His hand relaxed it’s grip on her wrist almost instantly, a shudder ripping through him as she pressed herself to his chest. Hand loose in the joint of his wrist he shakily pressed into the small of her back, pushing the hardness of his hips to her own and a sound came from him that sent heat and something akin to pain travelling into the heart of her belly.

The child of a moan and a sigh escaped him. “…oh…” he stared into her, eyes wide in an innocence she had seen in his eyes before. Innocence that was heavily doused in a heated desperate flame at her touch. “I’m sorry.” He shook, his thumb passing over the plump smoothness of her bottom lip. Hunger licked like flames in his gaze and still trembling he breathed against her mouth, making every muscle in her body tighten with anticipation. “I can’t… I can’t stop.”

It felt like drowning.

Gasping for breath she struggled to keep above water, feeling him as a wild sea that overwhelmed, that bruised and loved with desperation. Clothes were insubstantial obstacles to the raging heart beneath his chest, his voice raw in her ear as he whispered her name.

There were no words, nothing but the glow of his ocean eyes consuming her. He was everywhere, and at the same time all his senses were in tune with her, the taste of her skin, the feel of her in his hands, the sound of her moans and the shadows that played over the curves of her body beneath his fingers.

She was what he had hoped she would be. Her flavor as delicious as the perfume of her body, her cries a melody he could listen to the way the waves crashed on the shore. If this was dying, then he had made the right choice.

The spool of tension within him tightened, her body the archer to wield the bow. Aching at her touch he shook. This was new ground, unknown territory. He had thought this world was too small, a glass box with boundaries to hold him but in her hands he was in the nothingness of space, every shift of her hips and the feel of her curves beneath his finger tips a reminder that this world was as wide open and new as the sea was old.

Cheek pressed to his, feeling the agony and pleasure in his grip on her she closed her eyes tight, succumbing to the wildness of the ocean he brought with him among the tangled sheets and sweat.

“…I love you.”

Just a breath, a whisper before she drowned in him. His eyes were on her, as hypnotic and strange as the day she had met him. She watched as understanding overwhelmed him, his lips claiming hers.

That is what the want was.

There would be no more fighting with it anymore.


The snow had stopped and when it did the sun came, making everything glitter in the afternoon.

They slept through the morning in a tangle of limbs, more soundly than either of them had slept in too long. Waking was not the same, and yet familiar. Carefully she blinked her eyes, feeling each of his breaths along her cheek and neck, his face tucked in against her and her pillow.

His mouth seemed bruised, lips pink and plump as he drifted in his slumber. Pale skin reflected the weakening winter sun and she could see the smoothness of it clearly in the close proximity.

The warmth of his body made moving and separating any inch of their tangled limbs a freezing affair and so instead she nestled further into him, burying her nose to the curve of his neck.

“…hey…”

Startled she looked up to see him lazily opening one eye to look back at her, watching as she bloomed with color on her cheeks.

He had thought, that the tension of wanting her would end as he satisfied the craving, watching her moving above him, watching her moaning below.

But now, staring at her in his grip he realized there would be no satisfying it. Carefully he drew her up against him tighter, trailing her neck with his lips until she was shaking again. The tremble only fed the hunger and he sighed, almost a growl as he breathed her in.

“Why were you late?” His question, as always surprised her as he explored the length of her neck.

Eyes dazed she watched the play of light in the rafters again, more fascinated by the pattern of his mouth on her skin than the beauty of a distant star shining into her bedroom.

“…the snow tried to…stop me…” her words were coming slow, somewhere along the way his hands had started to travel like his lips did, and she was melting. How could she hold words if she was melting?

“Did you miss me?”

This shook some of the dizziness from her mind and slowly she turned to look at him, watching him travelling over the curve of her ribs, blue eyes orbs of light she would probably die without.

“Yes.”

The intensity in her answer drew a genuine smile from his mouth before it returned to her skin, lingering over the curve of her rib cage before trailing to her belly button.

“I know why you were confused by my belly button.” He murmured and she felt the heat engulf her at the memory, despite her nakedness in his hands. A flicker of realization dawned on her, remembering the anatomy encyclopedia she had found open in her living room days before.

“…okay…”

He smirked again at her reply before moving back to her mouth, his weight pressing her in a delicious way against the softness of her bed.

Closing her eyes to still her body she breathed in deep, opening them again only to have the air taken away by his staring.

“You’re mine.” He said it factually, searching her face for contradiction and she realized this moment was why they were called sirens.

“Yes.” she didn’t even think to argue, there was no argument to a fact. Just additions.

“And you,” she paused, watching his interest in her words play clearly in his gaze. “You are mine?” There was less conviction and more of a question in her tone but his smirk returned, satisfaction allowing him to press her down further, lips bruising as he tasted the honey of her tongue against his.

“Yes.” His breathlessness was not lost on her.

Abruptly a sound echoed and they stilled, listening.

From downstairs the door opened and closed and suddenly Hinata was scrambling to get up.

A voice sounded and she gasped, listening intently.

“Hinata?”

Feverishly she stood by the door, biting her lip and staring at it. “My family.” she whispered. Sasuke watched, interested to see what she would do, and not particularly alarmed despite her momentary panic.

Slowly, she took her clothes and began to dress herself, hearing the call of her name again.

“You… you should get dressed.” Her voice sounded unsure but at her request he lifted the clothes from the floor, unable to find his shirt for a moment until he realized it was on her body, baggy and flowing as she pulled it down.

Another smirk was making it’s way onto his face before he could help it and with chagrin he found himself another from the closet, following her out the door as she tried to untangle her hair with her fingers. Swallowing hard she led him downstairs, hand gripping his tightly, looking up in time to see her cousin and sister’s eyes widen at the sight of two coming down the stairs, not one.

“…Hinata?” Hanabi sounded incredulous. “Who is that?”

Neji was staring at the man with a wary calm tightness about his jaw that Sasuke found amusing.

“Where’d he come from?”

All three turned to look at her expectantly, waiting to see what she would say. Blinking up at him Hinata bit her lip. Steeling herself she started, making sure her tone left no room for discussion.

“He’s…my Sasuke. I caught him in the sea.”


He called it a pearl, and she laughed every time he did. Sitting on the sand with the wind soft and hot from the summer sun she dipped her toes into the water and smoothed her hand over the giant expanse of her pale belly. She felt bigger than she ever had and yet more comfortable in her skin too with someone else in it.

She could see him coming back from the water, rivulets of liquid dripping from him as he pushed his hair back with his free hand. His other held the bag of clams he had dug from the bottom of the harbor. It had not taken him long once he wanted to learn to swim, and like everything else that involved strength and movement he excelled at it. Holding his breath for ages he could linger near the bottom where she could only dream to even glance before feeling like she was dying.

Tapping her toes in the coolness of the ocean she wrinkled her nose at him cheerfully when he came to sit beside her, cool against the warmth of the hot sand.

“Clams. As requested.” He murmured, tossing them into the bucket they had for that purpose. The baby wanted nothing but clams. Sometimes she wondered if it would come out of her womb with a tail or a shell. Sasuke was adamant it would not. “But it will have a belly button.”

Every time he mentioned it she blushed.

Today the ocean was a calm placid thing, kissing at the beach with soft sighs, a lover after pleasure resting in the warmth of an embrace.

Other days were more difficult, with storms and light that bit through the sky and booming thunder that rattled their home. Nothing was easy, but anything was harder than being apart.

Over time her family stopped asking questions and started commenting to each other. She could hear them, as could he.

“…I literally never see them separate, is it normal for couples to be that attached?”

“What do they do again? She’s painting but what does he do?”

“And no family for him? Nothing? How does someone end up alone like that?”

“…she does seem happier though… less gloomy? Am I right, does she seem less gloomy?”

Like water on fish scales nothing ever stuck, and they always returned to their calm quiet, where the only cries were at night in each other’s arms.

“I think I may actually be getting sick of clams.” His voice was almost amused and Hinata’s eyes widened with disbelief. “No!”

“Yes. I think so.”

“I… I can actually eat more clams…than a Sylph?”

“Yes.”

“…wow.” Hinata looked back at their toes sitting sandy together on the beach, the ocean’s wet lick at the bottom of their feet. “I have been thinking about shrimp a lot lately though.” She admitted, turning her pale eyes to him. In the light of summer they were almost white, bright puffy clouds with no rain nearby. He smiled, a genuine smile that had taken months to take root.

“That would be a nice change.”

“How long do you think you can eat shrimp for?” She frowned, calculating how much longer she had left in the pregnancy. A sound like a strangled laugh escaped him and he leaned back, exposing the length of his neck as he rested on his elbows beside her. Eyes trailing the places she loved to kiss the most she watched, feeling heat rise to her cheeks despite the familiarity.

“…as long as you want. Clams too, for that matter.”

“I know.” She moved over to press her mouth to the salt wet of his neck. “That’s why I’m happy to change though, because I don’t have to.”

And the sea kept licking at their feet.

What the Storm Brought In Part Two of Three

The water did not feel the same against his skin. It fought, it tried to dominate in a way that it never had before, attempting it seemed, to pull his molecules apart, to break him down. He noticed it, in the bath inside her glass house, sitting in the water the tips of his fingers appeared to start to dissolve, softening the longer he stayed in the warmth of the tub.

Now, standing in the shallows of the beach he swallowed and breathed in the familiarity of the salt. The seaweed’s pungent rot ugly sweet inside his nose despite the smack of the wind against his face.

The water was calm, unlike the night his life ended. It wasn’t flat, like the glassy smoothness of a tide gone out, but the waves rolled in sleepy and tired, only a bit of foam to show the possibility of rabid squalls.

Above him the sky rolled, an expanse of gray like her eyes. Twisting and turning as though trying to contain the orb of light she called the sun. Fighting to keep it’s warmth beneath the cover of their ever changing softness.

He turned back, for only a moment to look at the glass house, like an aquarium it stared out into the face of the sea, trying to capture it in it’s windows and metal frames. There was no way he was going to be able to survive this world any better than he had been surviving his native waters. At least in the depths there had been length and breadth of movement. At least there, he had not lived in a box.

He stepped up further towards the water’s encroaching touch and watched it slither up and sigh against the sand, tickling his new fascinating toes, pricking them with the cold.

A yearning and loathing swirled within him at the feel of the liquid and he glared at the next stretch of wave and it’s possessive gasp against his skin, reaching for his ankles.

Would she notice? Would she be relieved? His eyes lifted and he listened to the sounds of the ocean, wondering if he could pick out the only voice he had heard so far above the surface of the water. Would he be able to differentiate her from the whisper of the sea breeze whistling around the glass of the house she called home?

The ocean sucked on his legs like they were delicious, slipping around him and back, gathering itself up for another go at his thighs, his hips, his torso.

The smack of the wave against his chest surprised him and he wondered that she had stood there that night and let the ocean roar at her, teeth bared.

The pull was strong and he felt his legs, still uneasy beneath him strain to keep him upright as the ocean pulled back, coiling together like a cat ready to pounce. A humming energy snapped as it crashed forward, embracing him to his shoulders, and then his neck, lifting him from the sand so his feet drifted above the solidity of ground.

As the water rose over his mouth he heard her, and she didn’t sound like the breeze, her voice was sharp, a harpoon through the quiet of the wave’s hush.

“Sasuke!”

She knew, like he did that without a tail, without gills, without scales the water would come and devour him. He was only surprised by the sound her voice made at the realization of what he was doing, and for a moment he wondered if he had made a mistake. Perhaps she would not be relieved.


She was small, but determined. She knew that at least. Her hands were shaking from the strain of fighting the sea for him. Fluttering they landed on his chest and completely soaked she sat nearly on his lap, gray eyes frantic as they searched his face, pushing back the dark hair on his forehead with sea soaked fingers.

“Please… please.” She was whispering, pressing her ear nearly to his mouth to listen for breath. “Please don’t die…”

He coughed then, and she sat up with a strangled breath as he rolled to his side and spat the sea water that both tasted familiar and rancid in his mouth. “Oh God.” she whispered, and he felt her hand on his back, pressing there.

His chest heaved with shards of glass as the water worked its way back up his throat and out of his lungs. Lungs which, only a month ago had sucked the water in greedily, eating away the oxygen without issues, feeding his muscles with the fuel.

Now it was poison, now it was pain.

He lay there on the sand and wondered again at the fact that she had allowed herself to be consumed in the middle of the terror of an angry ocean. This particular mood was soft and spoiled like a cat that had been given cream recently and therefore wasn’t as interested in hunting.

Even so it still played with him, sliding around in his chest where it didn’t belong, mocking. Reminding him again he was no longer wanted.

She was breathing hard next to him, her hand hesitating above his head and surrendering to the weight of gravity against his hair. “What… what were you doing? You can hardly balance, you can’t… you can’t swim.”

“…damn it.” He finally managed, shoving her hand away. “Don’t.”

Jumping back nearly a foot from him she dragged air in and out of her lungs, shoving the tangle of salt, water and hair that was clinging to her face. “Sorry… I’m sorry.”

His eyes stared into the grains of sand below him, the texture of each little bead hypnotic as he breathed, wondering how many of those tiny insignificant beads were in his lungs causing the fire that raged in his chest in that moment.

“…I guess we’re even now.”

His voice made her start and she felt her hyperventilating slow. Gray eyes stared at his crumpled gasping form and she tried to remember what he had looked like that day, sitting in the chaos of a furious sea. The dark made it hard for her to remember. Had his scales been green or blue or purple? Had they been smooth like pieces of glass or reflective, like pieces of metal dipped in silver?

Everything about him looked so normal now, and yet there was something about him that screamed irrationality. The perfect almost painful way that his wet lashes rested against his pale cheek, the fact that the tussle with the ocean only made the dark hair on his head frame his face in a wild and vivid beauty. Blinking rapidly he turned to look at her, as though expecting a reply to one of the few sentences he had directed at her without venom and she sucked in air.

His eyes, always made her feel like dying. Or living. She wasn’t sure.

“Why?” she felt the words stumbling over her lips before she could reign them back, her terror at his still, white lips only moments ago had unhinged something in her jaw and they escaped before she could sound the alarm. “Why do you think people decide they’re okay with dying?”

She had not asked him a single thing after the first night, and now months later of existing within the house like magnets of the same type, always around each other but never quite touching he was genuinely surprised.

There was liquid on her face, water from the sea but he could tell there was a rainstorm beginning in the clouds that were her eyes as well, threatening to pour.

His shoulder shrugged, a strange and yet perfectly normal action on his body. “I did because there was no one left to stop me.”

She stared, and her lips trembled as she pulled air into her body, he watched the plumpness of her pink mouth, fascinated for a moment by the play of light along the smooth skin of her bottom lip. There was not a color like that in all the sea, he had never encountered that precise pink.

“I…I… stopped you.”

Her words hesitated at the door of her mouth and then leapt out, making him raise his gaze to her eyes.

Slowly he straightened his body so he was kneeling on the sand beside her, watching the reckless abandon of the waves against the rocks further down, feeling the whisper of the wind against his freezing skin as she waited.

“Yes. I suppose you did.”

Something seemed to loosen her spine at his words and he watched her stiff back relax until she buried her face into her hands, trembling. He wondered what she was thinking then, for the first time since arriving on her beach.

The truth was the realization was dawning on her as it dawned on him.

And you stopped me.


The sun was up, and it’s weak gray touch slid through the room, highlighting the curve of Sasuke’s cheek on the pillow beside her. She stiffened, watching him breathe in and out slowly, frightened by seeing the face from her dream (or nightmare) up close after just waking.

Could she really call it a nightmare? She blinked herself awake with her heart already doing laps through the darkness of her chest cavity, the rush of blood loud in her ears, competing with the sound of the sea outside her window.

Groggily she moved to lay on her back, covering her eyes with one hand to block the light. He had a room, down the hall with his own bed and his own sheets and his own everything, and it didn’t matter. Every morning, like clock work she would wake up and he would be there beside her, fast asleep.

Sleeping was the one thing he seemed to like to do. He slept for hours through the mornings, waking reluctantly and in a foul mood, usually in search of food that she presented nervously.

What did merpeople eat? She had had no idea but assumed cooking had not really been an option below the shifting surface of the sea.

Sighing she slid her hand off her face and stared up at the ceiling, watching the rafters above play with the light of the weak autumn sun. The light moved like water, shifting and dancing, fluid despite it’s straight unwavering trajectory from the sun.

Months of this, day in and day out, watching him watch her was growing both familiar and exhausting. His words were few, usually reserved for irritated comments or reluctant questions.

She had not meant to be saved, had not known he was there. And by all rights, he should not have been.

So then why did she feel like his fate was her fault?

A movement beside her made her turn, reminding her that there was someone else in the bed with her. One of his eyes peered at her and she felt herself struggle for air. With the light from the window behind her directly on his face the usual black of his gaze always shocked her. It glimmered, a thousand spectacular blues swimming in the iris, greens and even yellows dancing, demanding her worship.

“Hi.” She didn’t know what else to say. His stare was always unwavering, unaffected by anything she did.

He sat up slowly, and it didn’t help the nerves plaguing her. The shirts she had bought him were a little big and the loose neck of the black fabric slid along his shoulder, revealing the smoothness of his skin along his neck, taut with muscles just beneath the surface.

“…you speak, in your sleep.” He said it so calmly and yet it made her stomach try to invert itself inside her. Limbs already shaking she scrambled to sit up and throw her legs over the side of the bed, her hair tumbling over her shoulders protectively, barring her from his sight.

“Oh.” She didn’t want to ask what she said. She had a bad feeling she already knew. Eyes closed in a new disturbing kind of humiliation she heard him take a breath, as though considering.

“You called to me.”

A snap of anger at herself shot through bitterly and she clenched her hands into the bedclothes around her. Her shoulders so tight they nearly reached her ears with the tension. “Sorry.” she mumbled, unsure of what else to say. “…I… I guess I’m preoccupied with getting you home.”

She had been studying. Books lay piled all over the floor, towers of them. Some were small, paperbacks that she had ordered online in foreign languages with dictionaries so she could read the lore of the people of the sea. Others were thick, bricks of mythological information. None of them had anything to say about the guilt of man in the tales of the sirens. In them only the people of the sea were deadly.

There was no one to share the burden with.

“I don’t think so.” He was firm, and she swallowed, standing up and heading towards her closet, her limbs jarred with the movement. The dream was already fading from her grasp and yet she knew, whatever he said next was going to make her want to climb back into the arms of the ocean only this time, she knew she would be alone with no one to save her.

“You begged me to stay.”

There it was.

The blood seemed to be pooling at her feet and the tips of her fingers, she felt cold and slowly she dragged in a breath.

There was a word she had never quite understood. It was pathetic.

Pathetic.

It confused her when she learned it and as a result she rarely used it. Pathetic, something too disgusting or revolting or humiliating to even think about? Is that what pathetic was?

This was the moment that word had been waiting for. Slowly she looked at her hands, small and white and useless. Pathetic. She was begging for a person she hardly knew to stay with her, in her sleep. Someone who was moody and ill tempered, someone who wanted to go home. Someone she had accidentally wronged and could not repay.

Pathetic.

“…I have to go.” she whispered it and grabbed the first item in front of her in the closet, her throat thick with tears as she stumbled out of the room and down the stairs, feeling him moving behind her.

His presence was like a heat seeking missile, somehow she could always sense him despite the near silence of his movements, the lack of whisper in his breath.

“You have not found anything in any of those books because there is nothing.” He was speaking calmly and yet it felt like he was throwing rocks. She winced, throwing the oversized sweater over her head as she stumbled to the bottom floor, pulling her hair out of the neck with trembling hands.

“We knew from the beginning. There’s no way back.”

She was almost hyperventilating as she pulled boots out of the closet. Her good ones had been lost in the storm and she had been mourning their loss more than anyone would have been mourning the loss of her had she been dragged with them to the ocean depths.

“You have to stop pretending.”

His eyes glared at her in the mirror of the closet door, it reflected only the darkness of his gaze, none of the luminescence that reminded her of fireflies in summer and the glowing jellies of the deep ocean. There wasn’t exactly anger in him so much as frustration.

Pretending.

Her eyes lowered once more to the ground where her boots sat, unsure if they were going to be going for a walk or not. Wary, it seemed to her, of leaving the house.

“I don’t know what to do.” she murmured softly. I barely know how to live and yet I belong here. What can I possibly do for you?

“I’m sorry.” she began, as she always did. I’m sorry you were there, I’m sorry you did not let me drown, I’m sorry that I cost you the ocean, I’m sorry that you’re stuck here, I’m sorry.

“I don’t want your apologies.” His tone was both tired and annoyed and he turned away, heading back up the stairs, to her room, she knew, not his. “This is what is.”

Startled she turned to the stairs as he disappeared into her room. Up there he would be curled into the covers of her bed, a tangle of limbs and tension, only relaxing when sleep finally overwhelmed him.

This is what is.

Her eyes drifted to the gray and black of the ocean in the weak sun, the colors tame, like the white, gray and black palette of her home. She didn’t want this to be all there was.

Slowly she dropped her boots, wandering up the stairs again until she stood on the threshold of the bedroom, watching the curled shape of him breathing slowly in and out, facing the window, watching the waves crash and roll beyond the glass.

Her feet lingered on the hardwood floor, one inch further and she would be in the room with him, not standing outside of it.

Carefully, she breathed in, wandering to her side of the bed before sitting on the edge. His gaze lingered on her, a small momentary shock flickered through the blue waves within his eyes and then became placid again as she lay down facing him.

Looking back at his unmoved expression she clenched her jaw, feeling the heat rise to her face despite her best attempts to keep calm. His hand lay limp on the sheets of her bed and cautiously she pressed her fingers to the palm.

A movement traveled from the point of contact over his body but he didn’t pull away or push her back. His eyes fixated on her face as she spread her fingers over the skin of his hand and then twined her digits with his.

All she wanted to do was apologize again, but that wasn’t helping. Some things could be fixed, and others could not.

“This is what is.” she murmured, raising her tear filled eyes to his, determined that despite the moisture she would not weep. He stared and something bloomed on his face, relaxing his tense shoulders. It was relief.


“This transfers the heat.” Her voice was gentle and he sometimes had trouble with it’s cadence. Here sound moved differently than back home. It shot in one direction without anything to stop it but walls, and when it did hit a surface it seemed to bounce instead of slow to a stop as it did below the surface of the sea.

She was adjusting a pan on the stove, and her fingers moved deftly, pressing a button that clicked with sound before a blue and orange flame breathed to life beneath the heavy black of the cast iron.

The gasp of the fire being born always made the skin around his eyes tighten briefly, almost a wince. He didn’t know what to make of the flames, although he had to admit that whenever she moved in the kitchen the smells on that side of the house would drag him from wherever he was to inspect.

It had occurred to him after a few weeks that she had no sense of smell, or a poor one at least. The world around him was a vast mess of senses, things were harder, he was heavier, the air was dry and his skin brittle.

“Not…that you need to learn to cook, I like to do it.” She added, and in her hands a handful of vegetables landed on the pan, sizzling with the butter she had melted on it’s surface. The smell of cooking onions rose from the dish and he studied her hands moving to grab a spatula, swirling the contents before turning back to the island where he sat.

Her hands shifted the shrimp on the ice in the bowl and he abruptly reached for it, pulling it from her grip. “I will do this.”

Blinking rapidly Hinata stared at him, watching as he deftly released each bit of protein from it’s shell, tossing the casings to the counter without raising his eyes to her.

“…thank you.”

He could smell her. The scent of her skin was just a few breaths away. It was a different scent than he had ever encountered. It reminded him of light, of the ice that hardened above the ocean sometimes, or the first gasp of air above the surface. It was not like the other people he knew from home, muted and unique but generally the same, always awash with salt.

This scent was subtle, and he had grown accustomed to it as the months passed, until it’s lack was noticed more than it’s presence. Of all the things he had seen out in the world beyond the ocean she was the one that was most alive. She moved like a pearl in stones, always glittering and white in a backdrop of noise and sound that didn’t move in familiar ways.

“Is it…normal for you to be this alone?” The question had been bothering him. There were no other smells in the house, no scents of people or lives lived near hers. There was the sea, there was the chemicals on the furniture and the scent of her, touching everything. But nothing else.

Hinata didn’t move, ignoring for the moment the sizzle of the pan behind her, eyes wide in her face as she stared at him. It had been months, the weeks had dripped by. At first they had done a lot of sleeping, ignoring the lights of the moon and the sun, and she had actually thought that perhaps he would not notice.

Or at least that he would not ask.

His dark blue gaze lifted and he stopped moving as he studied her parted lips, her shallow rapid breath.

“No.” She finally sighed, lowering her gaze to the counter in front of her. “It… is not normal.”

The calls to her cell phone had been ignored. The texts from her cousin replied to in quick one word answers. No one had really noted her missing for months. Stepping out of her life had been easy, and when they reached out to make sure she was alive she wondered if it was like suddenly noticing the change in light as hours passed. A gradual thing that caused no pain.

“Hn.” He had not removed his eyes from her face and she could not look at him again. She turned around, stirring the contents of the pan slowly, her hand allowing a shake that made her clench her teeth.

“Who is missing?” His questions were always pointed, and abrupt with no lead up to it, like dumping a bucket of water on her mid sleep. Swallowing, Hinata lowered the temperature on the oven where bread was finishing baking.

“No one. I… I have lived alone for some time now. I…” she stopped. She could not say she preferred it. Because she didn’t. She just didn’t want to live with…anyone else.

“I am…hard to tolerate.” She murmured finally. “Other people find it hard to tolerate me.” That was more or less true. At least of her family.

The sound of the stool pushing back made her turn and he was suddenly beside her, holding the bowl of de-veined shrimp in one hand, studying her calmly, if a little confusedly.

Hand shaking she took the bowl from him, dumping the shrimp into the pan only to sigh with dislike as a handful landed below it.

He was moving to poke them out with his bare fingers before she could say anything and her pale hand pushed him out of the way hard, slamming her knuckles into the blazing heat of the element. “Ouch!” she gasped, holding her hand to her chest as the spatula clattered to the ground.

The blisters were already forming and wincing she let out a breath. “Oh, don’t.. don’t touch anything near there, it’s so hot.”

Trying to not groan she moved to the sink, pouring the cold water over her hand as she turned to look at him studying her again.

“You’re hurt.” he muttered, and glanced at the fire warily again, as if it had confirmed his suspicions.

“It’s okay, it’s just a little burn.” She shook her head. “It’s fine.

"A burn.” He tasted the word and she stilled as he approached. He took her wrist carefully in his hands, turning her limb so he could see the bright red sensitive skin along her pale fingers.

“The water helps?” He turned to her and she nodded slowly, interested in the way his face looked as he took apart a problem.

Abruptly, and without asking he placed her finger in his mouth. His tongue was warm and soft against her digit and a sound came out of her throat before she could catch it, somewhere between a squeak and a sigh. Smoothly he withdrew his lips from around her index finger, inspecting it again and she stared.

The blister was gone, the redness a soft pink. “What…?” she began slowly and jumped as he placed the next burnt finger in his mouth, treating it with his tongue slowly, making her tummy tighten painfully before pulling it out of his mouth and putting it back under the flow of water from the sink.

“…we heal rapidly.” He murmured in answer to her obviously flabbergasted expression.

Pulling her hand from the flow of liquid he inspected his work carefully, and lowered her wrist slowly, fingers still tight around the delicate bones beneath her skin.

The scent of her skin had changed at his touch and he was curious. Experimentally he tightened his hold on her wrist and watched as pink appeared on her face, gray eyes widening a little as she stared at him, mouth plump and soft as the flesh beneath his fingers.

The perfume of her skin had something in it that was new, less airy and more enticing. Slowly he released her hand and moved back to sit where he always did, nodding towards the pan on the stove.

“Is it going to…burn?” he tried out the new word and Hinata jumped, snapping out of her spell to drag the pan from the fire, blinking to clear the fogginess in her mind.

“It’s… it’s actually okay.” She mumbled, licking her lips dryly.

But, am I?


He woke and she was not in the bed where she usually would be, staring at him. There had yet to be a morning when she wasn’t the first thing he saw. Instead the wildness of the ocean danced before his eyes and he felt a pinprick of pain.

The sky was matching the ferocity of the sea below it, and he didn’t move, instead listened to the crashing and tossing with calm eyes. If this continued the night would be the same as it had been nearly six months prior when he had arrived and died to the ocean.

Experimentally he raised himself to his elbow and scanned the room, but there was no sign of her, no clothes on the floor from her changing or water from the shower to signal it’s occupation.

Slowly he breathed in the smell of her off the sheets, the familiar cleanliness of it had been marred lately with something else that he found he could hardly stand because of how much it gratified him. Without her present to watch and wonder he lifted the pillow she used to his face and closed his eyes, letting the scent overwhelm him.

He had no name for it, nothing to compare it to. It was soft, and subtle and dark, it made something tighten in his belly and inspired thoughts of her mouth.

Swallowing thickly he pushed himself out of the bed and to the doorway, peeking down the hall and starting in surprise at her leaning against the wall further down, staring at a closed door as though it were arguing with her.

The surprise didn’t fade from his face as she turned to look at him, sensing his gaze on her form.

“Good morning.” Her voice was soft, and subdued, as though something had happened. He blinked slowly at her, studying her shape. Her legs were at an angle, pressing her hips to the wall and keeping her there. He could see the shape of her ankle bone by the shadow it made beneath it. A little cliff edge on her limb followed by the smooth curve of her calve and the strength of her thigh.

“What are you doing?” He couldn’t help it. She had never done such a thing and he didn’t understand it. Observing would not be enough, a question had to be asked. His eyes flickered to the door she was staring at again and she nodded at it.

“That’s my studio.”

He studied the door. It seemed unimpressive. It had never occurred to him to get near it. Further down the hall was the room that she had wanted him to use and that he continued to leave in the middle of the night. In it there was no sign of her, she had never spent any time in it and the idea of being in a place where nothing had ever lived made his skin crawl. In the ocean the water carried history, it had been breathed by creatures for centuries, it had bits of ancient things. There was nothing sterile, nothing truly and completely dead.

That room however was.

Figuring that the door she glared at had to be the same he had never even pondered opening it, now however he took a step towards it.

She had told him, briefly that she had been a painter. There was no such thing for his people, the ocean claimed everything, from their bones to their thoughts, and nothing was ever truly permanent but the cells that lingered in the molecules of the sea.

Only rock could be carved and kept for any length of time and so she had had to explain that here people used color that came from bottles and painted what they saw, or felt, or heard, turning the other senses into sight by force. He had not understood but figured it was similar to bards who made stories and sang beneath the waves.

She had mentioned her studio, using the word briefly to describe the place where she did this…creating. He had had no idea that it was so near.

“I’m going to go in it.” she said it reluctantly, as though it were a thing she had been trying to talk herself into doing for some time, and he realized that probably she had not slept long, if at all. Instead she had been there, staring at it.

Irritated, he moved forward, grabbing the door and flinging it wide, causing her to gasp in an O of surprise as he stepped inside.

The room held nothing, the walls were white, there were square canvases on the floor, lining the walls, their pale faces devoid of emotion. Along the other wall was the ever present glass of the windows stretching from one side to the other, letting the harbor beyond spread out wide and the last wall was decked in wood shelves covered in things he did not understand. Tubes, jars and brushes.

On the right he saw a pile of the square things stacked against the wall, hiding their faces. Slowly he moved towards them and she jumped the way she had the first night he had been in the house, pulling on her shirt with his fingers in the closet.

“Wait.” she whispered, but he didn’t. He had never been one for listening, and quickly before she could say anything else he began to pry the canvases apart, stopping abruptly.

He stared.

His ocean, the depth and breadth of it was in the square. The light as it filtered down between the darkness and the particles of past things that once lived in it. The tendrils of sea plants that swayed in rhythm with the ocean’s pulsing heart lingered at the edges, each fiber of the seaweed clear and defined. His fingers moved without asking permission and he touched it, feeling the smooth ridge of the paint beneath his skin.

“…how did you know it…” he began, and stopped, looking up at her. Her eyes were fixated, staring into his face in a way he had not seen her do before. The scent that was subtle before on her skin flared from her as she pulled her hair into a braid, fingers moving deftly and with purpose he had only seen her use in the kitchen.

“I’m going to paint your eyes.” she whispered almost to herself. He blinked slowly, absorbing this new creature that was stepping out from beneath the skin of the girl he had thought he knew.


She had been in the room the entire day and it was surprising him how irritated he was by it. Once only she came out, asked quietly if he would please look at her and he had, fixing her with his usual unwavering stare. Her cheeks had flared with heat as she looked back, trying desperately to keep her gray gaze on his until finally she succumbed and thanked him, hurrying away without another word.

The sun had moved through the clouds, fighting to be seen and losing. Now as it set, the rolling storm moved in with a vengeance, as though it could smell victory. The rain began to pour in buckets.

There was a place in the house where a table was set with six chairs, three on either side and a vase filled with flowers that he knew were made of something thick and disturbing and unreal.

This room was both his least and most favorite because the flowers disgusted him in a way he couldn’t shake, but the window from the living room and the window from this room connected making an unbroken corner of glass that looked out and encompassed the entire harbor.

With the lights on it seemed dark out there, the water rolling and black like ink, the clouds above twisting and turning with frustration he could almost feel. He had been thinking about turning the lights off to see it in it’s full glory with the rain screaming down the windows when they flickered and then went out on their own.

He had never heard her make a sound louder than a soft word so Hinata’s voice letting out a “Oh no!” Of dismay from the second floor made him turn, interested.

The house was in darkness, a familiar darkness that spilled in the halls without windows and abated where the moon could peek at the see-through walls.

Slowly he made his way to the stairs, climbing up to see what had made her make such a noise. She was meandering through the hall, holding on to the wall as her eyes adjusted to the black. Her studio lights were bright and their sudden loss had nearly blinded her.

“I have… some flashlights in the drawer on the nightstand.” She explained slowly, wandering into the bedroom with him. She raised her hands and he blinked at her arms, nearly to the elbow smeared with different colors. “I have to wash my hands, I’ll be right there.”

Following her instructions he dug through the wood box of the drawer, feeling several hard shapes. Curiously he pulled out a bottle with beads and stared at it’s yellow see-through plastic. Her name was scrawled along it’s side and another word that made him slowly sit on the unmade bed curiously.

Anti-Depressant

“Did you find that flashlight, it’s going to get so dark in a few minutes-” she stopped, and he looked up from the bottle at her, giving it a light shake that rattled the pills within it.

“What is this?”

Breathing in deeply she let out a sigh and wandered over, extending her hand for him to put the pill bottle into it. He hesitated for a moment and then lowered it to her skin.

“M-medicine.”

“For what?”

Hinata sat down beside him then, just as the first flash of light and then the boom of thunder rolled off the waves and into the house, giving it an experimental shake that rattled all the glass.

“My head.” She whispered. “Its…supposed to make you happy.”

He stared at the bottle, contemplating it’s contents. “You went out to the sea instead.”

“Yes.” She shook it gently. “It didn’t make me happy it… made me cold.”

She turned then and looked at the window behind them with the giant expanse of sea and sky, the lightening ripped through the heavens and she sighed. “It looked angry, like this that day and I thought… I’d like to feel something… even if it’s just angry, like the ocean was.” she blinked rapidly, realizing what she was saying as she said it. “I didn’t like the cold of the pills. It was worse than the…”

He knew what she was saying. It was worse than the pain.

They had never discussed the events that made them be alone, capable of wandering to the edge of the land and sea to stop their heart beats. And he was not about to start. But the idea of her staring out into the raging ocean and envying it did something strange to his stomach.

“I would do it again.”

She turned to look at him, wide eyes the only thing reflecting light in her face, the rest of her in shadow but the curve of her lip.

“If I saw you out there, I would do it again.”

The scent he realized that he had been noticing on her more and more was less a smell and more of a pull. Like a magnet tug only it was his molecules to hers, the atoms that structured him irrevocably dragged to where she was. In his new body he wrestled with it, grappling it and making it succumb to his will, although he was confused at the same time by the tension. He didn’t understand it.

For a moment he thought she leaned forward towards him, half an inch of movement that she corrected rapidly, and he wondered if it was normal, if this was how people of The Shore lived, always holding themselves away from each other.

Something happened on her face then, a slight change in her lips, the tone of her gray eyes fading to a soft glow as she smiled.

“…thank you.”

His hand was not complying to his orders and he picked a lock of her dark hair from her shoulder, the feel of the silk between his fingers as interesting and intense as the touch of her breath along the smooth skin of his arm.

The pull was there, almost an irrational need that he could just barely handle. It wasn’t a need however, he knew because it wasn’t like breathing or eating where death would come without it being satisfied, it was a want. And as he raised his gaze to hers he saw it there, on her face.

Maybe it was normal then. It seemed they were both holding themselves taut against the drag of their currents crashing and it wasn’t just him.

What the Storm Brought In

Part One of Two: For SasuHina Month- Mermaid AU

Just a quick warning: Suicidal thoughts are part of this fic- nothing graphic or disturbing, but please take note

It moved like silk, there was no sun to reflect off it’s face, just the moonlight and the gray expanse before her, glaring with it’s anger. She stood on the rocks and shivered despite the warmth of her jacket, her rubber boots useless. With the rain falling and the ocean raging the water had made it’s way into their depth anyway, and her feet were numb enough that she wasn’t sure they were still there, inside the dark material of her shoes. 

She squinted through the darkness, inching forward towards the beach. Beneath her the rocks crowded into the coarse sand, cracking together like eggs as she slid along them, trying not to trip. There was so little light, in the vast expanse of the world just the moon seemed capable of brightening the black and she was hiding, nestled in her covers of soft gray cloud. 

Pupils dilated partly from fear and partly from the shadows Hinata struggled through the shore, skipping over the rotting logs and sand blasted stone, stumbling over the crustacean covered rock, and the sea weed that threatened to tangle her feet until she felt it’s breath on her face. 

The sea, the salt and brine and cold slap of it’s wildness staring out in a tossing angry tantrum panted at her, rustling her clothes, tearing at her body heat.

“Why are you so mad?” She whispered, and in the downpour with the whistle of the wind ripping her black hair around her face there was no way she was going to hear her own voice. She could hardly hear her own thoughts. 

Although she did wonder if maybe they would be smooth and shiny with the sandblasting they were receiving in this storm. Would she be able to rinse them in the cool calm of her bathroom to reveal bright colored glass that was once shards?

Probably not. 

Her feet met the first wave as it tossed to the shore, encroaching on the land with dislike, biting it, trying to drag it and her along with into it’s arms.
She pondered for a moment, if she would let it. 

The water roared, a deep beastly growl as it flung itself forward again and she watched in fascination as the waves licked at her calves, then her knees in rapid succession, filling her boots, sucking hard on her limbs so that she staggered in an attempt to stay standing, feeling the pull of the sand as it dragged into the vast abyss of the rolling darkness. 

Panic finally fluttered at her chest and she let out a cry, something between a strangled sob and a scream and felt herself slam to the sand, it’s corrosion on her elbows, knees, shoulder and then face drawing out a hiss from her lips as she struggled to hold on to the land, to the place where by all rights she should belong. 

Why was it tearing away at her then? A million knives biting her skin, taking it apart.

A sound, a boom so loud she was sure it was right above her ripped through the world and hardly a second after a flash lit the world in it’s glory, just as the water was hitting her mouth, filling her nostrils, burning with the salt. In the lightening she stuttered, stupefied as the world exploded from black to light, hurting her eyes.

She could see the jagged shape of the rocks, and the shape of her home behind it, tall and empty and dark. The beach was void of life, just the emptiness of the decaying bodies of trees, green tendrils of seaweed and the shining reflective faces of millions of smooth sand battered stones. 

And as she gasped, gripping the slipping dissolving sand in frantic fingers she turned and saw his face in the light. Half a second of brightness as his dark eyes penetrated into her. Eyes so black she had only seen that color blue in the depths, out on her father’s boat, looking straight down into the endless unknown that was the ocean’s heart. 

When the water swirled above her and dragged her into an embrace that choked her of life she wondered if maybe she could be with him then, and was less worried, despite the pain. 


Waking had never been quite this painful. Usually the pain came after. When she was thinking about the day, about dragging her body out of bed, facing her family, facing her empty studio, the faceless void canvases lined along the walls, the brushes dry, the paint cracking with age. 

This time the pain was the first thing she knew, it shot through her chest, it burned her throat, it ate like acid at her nostrils as air was pushed hard into her unwilling bathing lungs. 

She felt the lips that closed over hers, they were smooth, unnaturally so, so soft she wondered if they were actually lips, but then there was the voice that came with them. 

“Breathe!”

She coughed, and the blinding pain intensified with each retch of her body, the water pumping out of places it should never have been. A sound like a dying creature escaped her as she rolled onto her knees and hacked, the liquid spilling between her lips. Wincing she looked up, in time to see the stunned look on his face. 

They were on the shore and though the rain was still pouring the storm had passed, the lightening a distant scratch of light across the harbor, the clouds receding with it, allowing the moon to filter down her sight, lighting on him. 

It happened in a mess of sparkles, the glitter began on the reflective surfaces of his scales, on the smooth glass-like fins where toes should have been and then brightened until she was blinded and had to gasp and cover her face. 

He exploded, light and water and the smell of the wild wind and when it faded to just the soft moonbeams and glowing falling snowflakes she could see, just as he could, that where his tail had been, there were instead legs. 

Her chest was burning, still aching from the salt water in her lungs but even if she had not nearly drowned she was sure the pain of her heart beat attempting to get out of her body would have hurt just as much. 

“You’re a…” she began, her voice wrecked by the salt, sand and water she had swallowed. The ocean was in her mouth, and it had demanded her voice. She cleared her throat painfully, and scrambled to remove her jacket. 

He sat beside her on the sand and stared at his feet as though they were new because they were, behind his ears she was sure there had been sharp angled scales that now were just jagged lines of his black hair. 

Handing him the fabric to use to cover himself she shook, her body freezing in the aftermath of the storm, her clothes plastered to her and heavy. “You’re a…” she tried again, and found she could not finish the sentence. He finally turned to her, and his dark eyes were less than impressed, the force of his displeasure rankled her almost as much as nearly drowning. 

“So this is why they say never to kiss those of The Shore.” He hissed.
That’s when she realized, as her fingers touched her mouth where he had breathed life back into her. She owed him big. 


He could not go back into the sea, it would not want him as he wanted it, and reluctantly he had agreed to come with her. He was cold, probably a first for him, and the body shivers that were taking over her own limbs seemed to be transferring to him. 

Thankful that she lived alone she stumbled up the steps, half dragging, half carrying him as the realization that he didn’t know how to use his legs dawned on her. 

The muscles were all there, but the idea of being vertical was probably new and together, clasping at each other they stumbled into the glass and metal and tile of her house sitting by the sea. 

The door opened with a silent hinge and as soon as they were inside he crumbled to the solid cold tile floor, breathing hard as though he had run a long ways. 

Panting a little herself she scrambled past him, trying not to step on him in the dark and shoved the door with a grunt to shut it, slamming it and filling the space between them with a silence that was unnatural after the screaming storm and the howling sea. 

Windows, floor to ceiling spread from beside the door along the main sitting room where her guests sat before being brought into her studio. Before when she had actually worked they had been offered things like wine, cheese, champagne and caviar to munch on as they waited for her to be ready to allow them into her sacred space, the place where she painted. 

However the room had been unused in so long she had nearly forgotten it was there, despite living in the house and thankful for the smooth white couch that lined one wall along the windows she reached down and took him by the arms, feeling the incredible smoothness of his skin beneath her fingers. 

“Here. Come sit here, it will be less c-cold than the floor.” Heaving to get him to his feet she stumbled and they nearly fell but righted themselves at the last second, just in time to let him collapse onto the couch. 

Somewhere behind them was the jacket she had offered him and he was naked, completely and utterly naked. 

Usually this would have made her supremely uncomfortable but to her surprise she actually did have an ultimate level of discomfort and it had been breached, nothing could phase her at this point. Not after seeing fish tail turn to strong legs. 

Swallowing hard she stood there face in her hands, breathing hard through her abused painful throat and lungs. 

“…you’re a…” she tried again, and the words wouldn’t come, they caught on her larynx, clinging to sanity for her in a way she felt she must have lost some time ago. 

“We are called Sylph.” He snapped, and his mood reflected outside as another string of lightening and thunder screamed across the harbor, making her jump and look past him through the window to the drifting storm. 

“Sylph.” She whispered, dragging her gaze from the tantruming nature outside and back down to him, jumping at the glare of his black eyes gazing back at her. 

“Ah! I… clothes.” she stated and turned, running and stumbling through her house and up the stairs that floated from the wall up to the landing in her chrome and glass world. 

“Where is this place?” He shouted, and his shout was no less impressed than his quiet melodic voice. Panting and not from the run up the stairs Hinata ripped through her wardrobe, knowing there were some of her cousins old things around here somewhere. 

“…I…” she stuttered, unsure of what he was saying. “My house. We’re at my house.”

Turning around she jumped, finding him in her bedroom, a shadow in the dark with only the moon and the stars outside finally recovering from the chaos to illuminate him. 

Glad for once that she forgot to turn the lights on she breathed in sharply, realizing… there was a man. 

A naked man. 

In her room. 

“Here.” she threw the clothes at his feet and scampered into her en suite bathroom, turning the hot water on, keeping the lights off for both their sakes.

“You… you can shower… if you want… to get warm, and there’s towels… and I… I… I will make us something warm, to drink…” she scrambled past him, ignoring his penetrating dark stare and down the stairs, before he could say anything else in the melodic voice she knew was going to haunt her dreams when she slept. 


Alone, finally in her kitchen she realized, the lights wouldn’t be coming on. The power was out. Swallowing hard she lit the gas stove and put the kettle on, realizing that the reason there was liquid all over the counters was that her wet clothes were dripping everywhere, coating her usually clean sterile world in the sand and salt and gritty water of the seashore. 

Shivering in her damp mess she breathed in and moved towards the stairs, staring up at the mouth of the hall where her room was. Dry clothes would be nice… and a shower… but…

She could hear the pounding of the water in her bathroom, and steeling herself she moved forward slowly, breathing in through her nose to keep herself as calm as possible before peering into the room to find it empty. The clothes she had thrown at him still sitting on the floor, where she had last seen them. 

I’m having a nervous break down.

Blinking owlishly in the dim light she moved forward, expecting the bathroom to be empty too. She had gone down to the shoreline with little intention of returning so surely, this was the follow up to that disaster. Maybe she had hit her head, when the wave had tried to eat her? Maybe she had gone mad living alone in her glass and metal house by herself for months?

Swallowing hard she peered into the bathroom, the tiles reflecting the broken light from the window above the claw foot bathtub and the shower head that was pounding water down. She stared, startled to see through the curtain his shape in the darkness. 

She blinked, hard, painfully hard, trying to dispel the image, but opening her eyes did nothing. He was still there, head bowed, face in his hands, just breathing. 

Slowly she pulled back into her room, swallowing the knot that seemed determined to make a home in her throat. 

This can’t be happening. 

Slowly, with trembling pale fingers that she had not noticed were turning a little blue she pulled a pair of dry pants and a baggy long sleeved black shirt from her closet. Shutting herself up in the darkness of the walk-in to change, fumbling with her bra and panties, stuck on to her body by the wetness of the sea. 

Her breathing was shaky, she could hear it in the stillness and shuddering she pulled on her clothes, her skin sticky with cold and salt. 

“…girl.” His voice made her freeze and then panicked she yanked on her shirt, pulling it down just as he peered into the closet. He stared, studying her intently. 

“You have new skin.” His statement was so unbelievable she just stared, and then slowly lowered her eyes to herself. 

“They… they’re clothes.” she whispered, and jumped as he entered the closet, which was big, but not exactly for sharing. His eyes traveled over her shape, and to her shock moved to pull on the hem of her shirt, tugging on it.

 "Not skin.“ His gaze lifted and in the dimness she couldn’t decipher his expression as he studied her, taking her chin in one of his hands, almost able to envelope her small features in his grip. "This is skin.” he muttered, almost to himself, uncaring of the panic widening her pale gray eyes. 

Aware that he was probably still naked in this moment Hinata felt the old resurgence of her blush coming back, heating her face. Startled he jumped back. 

“Your skin burns.” He studied her again, the same way, she realized, she was studying him, with barely contained terror. 

“Sorry.” She whispered. “You… you have to put the clothes on. They’re over… out… out there.” Her hand lifted to point and he took it, pulling her. 

“Show me.”

“Ack!” her gasp escaped her as she was propelled into her bedroom, and eyes down she grabbed the clothes, showing him with her gaze firmly fixed on the material in her trembling hands.

 "This… is the shirt. This is… this is the pants- top and bottom.“ she stretched them out to him and with a curious expression he took them.

"Bare skin disturbs your kind.” It was a statement, more than a question.
She swallowed, more awkward now that he seemed to realize her discomfort. 

“Yes.”

Slowly, as he seemed to be trying to figure it out he pulled the pants on beside her, and then fiddled with the shirt until his frustration came out in a “Tch.” of displeasure. 

“Here.” she mumbled, taking it and untangling the knot he had made of it. Hands shaking she helped him get his head and arms into it, stepping back as he pulled the white shirt down. 

Able now to look at him she stepped back some more, feeling the lightheaded pull she had been ignoring filter through her body. 

“What… what did you say you were?” She breathed in, and he looked at her with the same eyes she had seen in the flash of the lightening at the shore, almost in a different life. The same dark agonized blue that was closer to black. 

“Sylph.” the word had the same familiarity on his mouth that “girl” or “human” had on Hinata’s and she swallowed hard, feeling the frame of the door way hit her shoulder. Slowly she leaned on it, staring at him. 

“I really…I really messed up.”

His eyes did all the talking. Yes. You did.


She struggled to sleep, tossing and turning, knowing that he was downstairs, wondering if, when she woke he would be gone. 

He did not want to talk. He did not have questions. He was mad. Angry that his fins and his scales and his freedom had been taken. He glared at her with a venom she found hard to match, and despite her thanks for his saving her life he remained unmoved. 

It was her fault, and therefore, he wanted her to figure out how to make him… Sylph again. 

Merman. He’s a merman. 

Her head was pounding, and no amount of water, or closing her eyes or painkillers seemed willing to get rid of the pain, not until she finally fell asleep, with a worry that she would wake and he would still be there, on the couch downstairs in her house.

Or worse, that he would be gone. 

She still had not decided which was worse when she jolted awake to the feel of someone grabbing her wrist and pinning her hard to her bed, the blast of the sun ripped through her eyes and made her wince, her curtains were open and like most of the house a whole wall of her room was made of glass. It allowed her stare out to the sea she loved so much she had thought to let it drown her. 

“Ah!” she gasped, and felt her heart stutter as she turned to look up at him. He was more broad shouldered and muscled than she had realized in the dark of the night and his skin glowed in the brightness of the sun, porcelain was not the correct way to describe it.

Like dew, translucent. 

Her cheeks blazed red and she stared up at him in half admiration half terror. “You need to figure out how to get me back home.” He snapped. “Enough sleeping.”

Mouth agape she stared some more. “Back… back- how am I supposed to know how to-”

“You’re the one that changed me into this.” He gave her a shake that made her gasp although it lacked force against her mattress. “Why did you lure me to the sands?”

“L-lure-?” the brightness of the morning was dazzling her tired confused brain. He was dazzling. The whole situation was a sparkly frightening mess. “I didn’t lure- what?” Her confusion in turn confused him and with a slow uneasy breath he searched her face, as though looking for a clue as to her plans. 

“What were you doing in the water?” There was no room for arguing, his tone was deadly and straight, like the edge of a blade, his grip on her wrist tightened and she felt the weight of his new legs along her thighs, threatening.

“…I… I don’t know..”

“Don’t lie.”

She blinked, thinking back. What had she been doing? 

There was the storm, the flash of thunder in the distance across the water. There was the pelting of the rain, the drag of the wind. There was the pain, eating her alive in her chest. The hollow nothingness. Her pills untouched in her nightstand table. 

She shivered beneath him, and he wondered for a moment how someone could have eyes that were like the clouds. Insubstantial things he had only seen once or twice in his life, pale gray and white. They were pure. Like the light that filtered from her world to his. 

“I…think I was….planning to die.”

Her words made his mouth, soft and delicate looking, like the smoothness of a new born’s lips, part. 

“That’s…” He breathed slowly, releasing her wrists and sitting back on his brand new heels, shoulders loosening in defeat. 

“That’s what I was trying to do.”

They stayed still, eyeing each other with mirrored confusion and wariness. Hinata’s cheeks still blazing red, although her breath had finally slowed to a steady rhythm. 

“I’m… my name is Hinata.” She whispered. He lifted his gaze again to her, and the light stroked through the iris, setting the black into a dazzling show of blues and greens. Light, passing through the ocean. She sucked in air hard, trying to dispel the feeling of drowning that washed over her. 

“I’m Sasuke.”

Slowly, delicately, she pushed herself up to her elbows, swallowing the knot that had made camp in her throat again. “We should… I… let me make you breakfast?” It was almost a question, and he stared at her for a moment again, unflinching in his gaze, uncaring of her discomfort beneath it’s touch. 

“Okay.”


“So…so you were…” She paused, rubbing her still gritty, salty forearm over her forehead for a moment. Her hand was occupied with a flipper that was stirring eggs around in a pan less carefully than she usually would, seeing as there was a distracting merman sitting on her bar stool at the island. 

A merman. 

I’ve gone crazy. I’ve gone completely off the rails crazy.

“You think that we…that people- me, girls… that go into storms are luring you- your people to their death.” She stared at the counter, trying to equate that. 

“You’re called the Sufines.” He frowned at her. “We are told not to kiss you, or we die." 

Her pale gray eyes lifted upwards to him and if only for a moment held his dark stare, an ache that was unfamiliar wriggled in her chest. An ache that was not for her, but for him. 

"I… I don’t kill people.” she whispered softly, turning back to the eggs on the stove. “We call you mermaids…or men, depending… and… some of you drown us.”

“We do not.” He sounded offended, and she raised her shoulders nearly to her ears in defense, refusing to turn around. 

“Well… I’m sorry but I…” she sucked in air again hard. The feeling of drowning was coming and going like the tide. “I barely decided to let myself go and so, I’m not going to go and kill you.” I could barely even try it on myself.

“No.” His tone had changed, just a bit and she glanced over her shoulder at him. He sounded tired.

 "I don’t know how… to fix it.“

His eyes held hers, the same impassive disinterest there in her discomfort looking back. When he didn’t say anything she turned back around, and began to dish out the eggs, slicing the avocados and tomatoes to go along with it, hands shaking slightly. 

"Why did you?” He finally asked and she stiffened, wishing that he had not asked the question she had been dreading. She didn’t know the answer herself. She didn’t know why letting the ocean have her had even been an entertained thought. In a show of force, like a kicked dog on the street she turned, pushing the plate of food towards him, jaw tight. 

“Why…did you?” She looked up at him as she cracked pepper onto his omelette. 

Everything about him looked…new. Soft and delicate, despite the masculinity in his structured jaw, his cheek bones and elegant nose. Everything looked, glossy… fresh. She studied her chapped hands and wondered if she looked raggedy to him. 

“Maybe I’m dead already.” He muttered, frowning a little at her. “Maybe…you did kill me.”

Hinata looked up, surprised by his reply. “…maybe there’s no way back.” She whispered it, as she realized. “Maybe that’s why…your people think we kill you.”

His gaze held the sickening truth, the acknowledgement of her words. Because even as she voiced it she knew. That’s what it was. 

They never went home. None of them. So then….

I have… a permanent merman….